BlueEyedBoy

Hi all,

I have been around the forums for a few years now, and am 26 years old. I've been drinking alcoholically since I was 18, and I've gone through various stages. Without going into too much detail I broke my sobriety recently when my mum died, and since then (about three months since) I've started drinking again. It's not the worst I have ever been...but it is crushing me. I may not be downing bottle after bottle of vodka like before but I am just depressed all the time.

I want to go back to AA but I've burned so many bridges in my local groups. I just don't think I will ever be able to maintain sobriety.

Anyways, just wanted to say hi.

SoberLeigh

Welcome back, BlueEyedBoy. I am sorry for the loss of your mother.

I don't utilize AA but I suspect that you would be welcomed back.

Have you considered grief counseling?

BlueEyedBoy

I've tried to reconnect with a friend from AA and they're meeting me tomorrow so I hope that goes well.

Grief counselling? I am not sure I could handle it at the moment, but obviously something needs to change as I am back to the old habit. I did over a year sober- I just want to go back to that sort of peace.

Soberwolf

Nice to meet you Blueeyedboy so sorry for your loss i lost my mum around your age

I would try again with aa your going to need support and you have us now too

Hang in there bud

Welcome bk

PurpleKnight

Welcome back BlueEyedBoy, Very sorry to hear about the loss of your mum!!

Don't give up on your Sobriety, get the right tools in place and make it happen.

You can do this!!

Alwyshope12

from my brief experience with AA, i have learned it is about working on your character defects, this is for everyone in the program. i am almost certain that even if you did burn bridges, there would be opportunities to learn from that and grow.

personally, i think the program is great. it is doing me good.

Dee74

I agree with everyone BEB - I doubt your bridges are as burned as you think they are

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