QuietHero

I barely got to sleep. I feel so ashamed been down this road many times. It's heartbreaking to feel I'll just be here again. Like it just doesn't matter. I don't want to give up. I hate myself for this

SoberLeigh

Good job on finishing Day 1.

Don't ever give up; don't let something as damaging as alcohol have the upper hand. Sobriety and recovery are totally worth it. YOU are totally worth it, QuietHero.

Foolsgold186

The shame and hatred was something I couldnt handle feeling anymore. In time you can wake up not feeling either.

Dont give up, you can do it.

Wishing you well.

IOAA2

Hi and good job on day one day at a time.

Might I suggest try not doing this by yourself. I’m ever so grateful the people of AA were close by before I realized I couldn’t do it on my own any longer. They are pros fighting this disease one day at a time even if we may not like all their teachings it works IF we work it.

It can easily be life or death if we don’t put our all into it.

BE WELL

Soberwolf

Hang in the QH

Whats your sober plan bud ?

QuietHero

Well I don't know a great sober plan. I just push away my ex lover as alcohol was always associated with her. That was when my relapse happen I can't think straight around her. I will listen to video on YouTube that deals with the subconscious. I used this method with something else to work. hopefully it can drastically halt my alcoholism. I will work on my diet and considering joining a gym. Of course I will be active here praying that I can post I was sober for 120days like the rest of you. This will be a test considering my b day is 2weeks from now. I don't feel the need to drink on that day but I don't want the temptation. But I could use any pointers. What I realized is that when I relapse it always start me telling myself that I'd stop for a awhile I can control myself. Now I just need to learn how to not listen to that voice.

PurpleKnight

It all starts with a Day 1!! Keep pushing through!!