Hello all this is scary even though u can't see me I'm real
secretdrunk747
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Harrisburg Pennsylvania
Posts: 2
Hello all this is scary even though u can't see me I'm real
This is my first time registered and actually posting. Been looking at this site for several days. I am still secretly drinking so I have clean date as you all have. You AL give me inspiration tho. I don't want this life anymore. I am lonely and isolate myself from a loving family. I have beautiful children and am a recent grandma. WHY can't that be enough for me to stop this???!!! I hate myself and I feel guilty every time I drink!!! This started only after last several years, but the demon has grown out of control. I am also blessed with a good job who has been so understanding of my work absences. Sure many ppl see through me. My fake smile and constant lies. Sumthing I hate from others!! I became that and I can't do it anymore! !!thanks for allowing me to share
Hillbilly Girl
Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: In my Garden
Posts: 3,953
Glad you are here SD - The demon was getting out of control for me too, despite having many that love & care for me. Not drinking is tough sometimes, but not as tough as continuing to live in that cycle. I think we all deserve to live free of it's chains. You are among friends here and will find much support & understanding.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,385
Welcome to SR secretdrunk 
I don;t believe alcohol is a moral failing - it's an addiction and illness. There's no sense ion beating yourself up.
You'll find a ton of support and encouragement here.
If I can get sober, I truly believe you can too.
It;s never too late to be who you want to be
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I don;t believe alcohol is a moral failing - it's an addiction and illness. There's no sense ion beating yourself up.
You'll find a ton of support and encouragement here.
If I can get sober, I truly believe you can too.
It;s never too late to be who you want to be
D
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Ny
Posts: 739
welcome secretdrunk,
I too, had a loving family who I did not want to lose..Once you stop drinking, you will have the opportunity to gain their love and trust back..You have so much in your life worth enjoying.''
Stick around here and post how you are feeling. We have all been where you are but we give and get support here...Welcome!
I too, had a loving family who I did not want to lose..Once you stop drinking, you will have the opportunity to gain their love and trust back..You have so much in your life worth enjoying.''
Stick around here and post how you are feeling. We have all been where you are but we give and get support here...Welcome!
Community Greeter
Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,537
We know you're real Secretdrunk - and we're so glad you're here.
Drinking turned me into someone I didn't even recognize. It was once fun and relaxing - but over the years it became a necessity. It feels so good to be free of it. You can do this.
Drinking turned me into someone I didn't even recognize. It was once fun and relaxing - but over the years it became a necessity. It feels so good to be free of it. You can do this.
Member
Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: Earth
Posts: 607
Welcome fellow grandpa. You'd be surprised how many people already know the secret and see through the lies. I thought I was fooling the world until I got that wake up slap in the face.
It's never too late to pull yourself out of this. Granted it's not easy but completely possible.
I've said this in other posts but one of my motivations for getting sober is for my grandsons to never have the memory of a drunk grandpa. That and living to see them grow up.
It's never too late to pull yourself out of this. Granted it's not easy but completely possible.
I've said this in other posts but one of my motivations for getting sober is for my grandsons to never have the memory of a drunk grandpa. That and living to see them grow up.
secretdrunk747
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: Harrisburg Pennsylvania
Posts: 2
Thank you all so very much
I'm left in complete tears. To be able to open up and be Real I cherish. Always I ValueD honesty. And coUld not stand a liar. something I have mastered and literally I disgust myself for that!!!"I am scared and lonely! !!
I'm left in complete tears. To be able to open up and be Real I cherish. Always I ValueD honesty. And coUld not stand a liar. something I have mastered and literally I disgust myself for that!!!"I am scared and lonely! !!
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: California
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Originally Posted by MariahGayle 
Not drinking is tough sometimes, but not as tough as continuing to live in that cycle. .
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