Leb 33 days today (I think)
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Leb 33 days today (I think)
Hi everyone, I'm still sober and doing pretty well most of the time. I feel a bit edgy today. Like I am missing out on things and everyone else is having fun.
I also have been VERY sleepy again and have various aches and pains. Nothing too much, just annoying. I guess I've hit a bit of a lull in the enthusiasm department.
I really don't want to drink and am not craving alcohol. More craving the things I used to do - like go out and loose my inhibitions and have a great time. Alcohol really loosened me up because I find small talk and socialising hard without it. I'm a bit of a loner and very self conscious when I'm sober. I guess this is why alcohol was such a magic potion to me from a young age.
I really know that this is a figment of my imagination and I only embarrassed myself and felt ill and depressed for a week afterwards.
I am still exercising which helps but taking this slowly until I get a bit fitter. I guess I need to socialise more without alcohol but I'm a bit scared I'll succumb to temptation.
Anyway feeling better now and clarifying things in my mind by writing here. Hope you are all going good. Stay strong
I also have been VERY sleepy again and have various aches and pains. Nothing too much, just annoying. I guess I've hit a bit of a lull in the enthusiasm department.
I really don't want to drink and am not craving alcohol. More craving the things I used to do - like go out and loose my inhibitions and have a great time. Alcohol really loosened me up because I find small talk and socialising hard without it. I'm a bit of a loner and very self conscious when I'm sober. I guess this is why alcohol was such a magic potion to me from a young age.
I really know that this is a figment of my imagination and I only embarrassed myself and felt ill and depressed for a week afterwards.
I am still exercising which helps but taking this slowly until I get a bit fitter. I guess I need to socialise more without alcohol but I'm a bit scared I'll succumb to temptation.
Anyway feeling better now and clarifying things in my mind by writing here. Hope you are all going good. Stay strong
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Congrats on 33 days leb 
the longer I remained sober the more I looked at how much work I put into being someone I wasn't.
The pressure of trying to be the garrulous bon vivant that was one of the reasons I used to drink.
I'm actually a pretty shy guy, and I accept that now - and I'm far more happier for it.
Be careful you're not romancing the drink here - I got loose, alright - so loose I fell from balconies and through plate glass windows.
I'd rather be old and shy than young and not around anymore.
It's ok to be you - whoever that is
If you feel you really are the livewire type, then I have no doubt you can be again, sober
D
the longer I remained sober the more I looked at how much work I put into being someone I wasn't.
The pressure of trying to be the garrulous bon vivant that was one of the reasons I used to drink.
I'm actually a pretty shy guy, and I accept that now - and I'm far more happier for it.
Be careful you're not romancing the drink here - I got loose, alright - so loose I fell from balconies and through plate glass windows.
I'd rather be old and shy than young and not around anymore.
It's ok to be you - whoever that is
If you feel you really are the livewire type, then I have no doubt you can be again, sober
D
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Originally Posted by leb 
Hi everyone, I'm still sober and doing pretty well most of the time. I feel a bit edgy today. Like I am missing out on things and everyone else is having fun.
I also have been VERY sleepy again and have various aches and pains. Nothing too much, just annoying. I guess I've hit a bit of a lull in the enthusiasm department.
I really don't want to drink and am not craving alcohol. More craving the things I used to do - like go out and loose my inhibitions and have a great time. Alcohol really loosened me up because I find small talk and socialising hard without it. I'm a bit of a loner and very self conscious when I'm sober. I guess this is why alcohol was such a magic potion to me from a young age.
I really know that this is a figment of my imagination and I only embarrassed myself and felt ill and depressed for a week afterwards.
I am still exercising which helps but taking this slowly until I get a bit fitter. I guess I need to socialise more without alcohol but I'm a bit scared I'll succumb to temptation.
Anyway feeling better now and clarifying things in my mind by writing here. Hope you are all going good. Stay strong
I also have been VERY sleepy again and have various aches and pains. Nothing too much, just annoying. I guess I've hit a bit of a lull in the enthusiasm department.
I really don't want to drink and am not craving alcohol. More craving the things I used to do - like go out and loose my inhibitions and have a great time. Alcohol really loosened me up because I find small talk and socialising hard without it. I'm a bit of a loner and very self conscious when I'm sober. I guess this is why alcohol was such a magic potion to me from a young age.
I really know that this is a figment of my imagination and I only embarrassed myself and felt ill and depressed for a week afterwards.
I am still exercising which helps but taking this slowly until I get a bit fitter. I guess I need to socialise more without alcohol but I'm a bit scared I'll succumb to temptation.
Anyway feeling better now and clarifying things in my mind by writing here. Hope you are all going good. Stay strong
When I stopped drinking it was like something had died and I had to mourn my old life.....drinking felt like the only time I could have "fun"....god how wrong I was. I was never having any fun. Give it some time, these feelings do pass but dont sit and wait for the good times to happen. Create them.
Wishing you well.
L x
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Well done on over a month sober, leb
I think for me drinking never was fun- I just thought it was because it numbed everything out.
Drinking just gave me an excuse not to feel anything.
I'm finding that I have more confidence now as a sober person and more of a good time than I ever had drunk -at least I can remember it now.
No drunk driving any more either, and a lot more money.
You're doing great !!
I think for me drinking never was fun- I just thought it was because it numbed everything out.
Drinking just gave me an excuse not to feel anything.
I'm finding that I have more confidence now as a sober person and more of a good time than I ever had drunk -at least I can remember it now.
No drunk driving any more either, and a lot more money.
You're doing great !!
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Alcohol did make me feel more comfortable in my own skin for, but I'm beginning to noticed that the anxiety it "cured" was also largely caused by it as well. I had to remind myself the first few weeks that even though alcohol did make me feel good the repercussions of its use far outweighed any benefits.
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Congratulations!! Though my DOC was crack, I also had to "grieve" the drama and excitement that life brought me.
Funny thing....I enjoy my life now without all that drama. Life still brings a bit of drama, but I'm happy that I don't have to get numb to deal with it.
Took me a while to get used to the "new me" but it was worth it and I think you'll find the same
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Funny thing....I enjoy my life now without all that drama. Life still brings a bit of drama, but I'm happy that I don't have to get numb to deal with it.
Took me a while to get used to the "new me" but it was worth it and I think you'll find the same
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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