325 days clean
painless
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325 days clean
MADE IT TO 325... LOOKING FORWARD TO MY 1 YEAR CLEAN. ILL GET IT. I HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF AND FOR THOSE THAT LOVE ME. I STILL MISS 2 INITIALS TERRIBLY BUT... IT IS WHAT IS IS... I FOUND 3 BAGS OF HEROIN IN AN OLD JACKET POCKET THIS MORNING AS I WAS WRAPPING IT UP TO MAIL TO A FRIEND... IT TOOK ME BY SURPRISE BECAUSE IT WAS THE BEST DOPE IVE EVER HAD BEFORE... IT WAS STAMPED... "TOM FORD" 3 BAGS OF THAT IN MY VIENS I WOULD FEEL AMAZING... I WOULD FEEL LIKE SUPERMAN RIGHT NOW... I WOULD.... I WOULD... I WOULD RATHER DIE THEN STICK A NEEDLE INTO MY BODY AND LET MYSELF DOWN AFTER ALL THESE DAYS CLEAN... I TOOK A BAD FALL LAST WEEK AND ALL IVE BEEN THINKING OF IS A WAY TO STOP THIS PAIN AND THEN 3 BAGS APPEAR OUTTA NO WHERE... I TOOK THE THREE BAGS AND WENT OUTSIDE THE POST OFFICE AND RIPPED THEM IN HALF AND BURRIED THEM IN SOME NASTY LOOKING SNOW. IM HUMAN AND IF I DIDNT DESTROY THEM RIGHT THEN AND THERE I KNOW THE JUNKIE HIDING INSIDE ME WOULD STRONGLY TRY TO JUSTIFY THE USING OF THOSE THREE BAGS... I FELT SICK TO MY STOMACH AS SOON AS I LOOKED AT WHAT WAS IN MY HANDS. I MUST HAVE STASHED THEM IN THE JACKETS TINY COIN POCKET AND FORGOT THEM. I WAS FINDING BAGS OF DOPE HERE AND THERE IN MY CLOTHS AND IN OTHER STASH SPOTS DAYS AFTER DETOX AND I DESTROYED THOSE TOO SO THESE BAGS GOT THEIR JUST DESERVES TOO. M PROUD OF MYSELF BECAUSE I COULD HAVE EASILY FELL... ITS HARD PEOPLE... VERY HARD ESPECIALLY LIVING WITH PAIN. IM IN NEED OF TOTAL LEFT KNEE REPLACEMENT YET IM PUTTING OFF SURGERY FOR A FULL YEAR. I WANT TO FIND AN ALTERNATE FOR OF PAIN KILLING FOR MY NEXT SURGERY. ANY INFO WOULD BE APPRECIATED... STAY STRONG... ITS NOT THAT HARD...
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: Wisconsin, USA
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Great resolve Painless and congrats on your 325 days. I don't know specifics but there are a lot of non-drug pain therapies out there, have you spoken with your doctor about potential options?
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