immri

My mind is a absolute mess tonight
I started smoking again (fine, I can quit again when I'm a bit stronger in my sobriety) and have had more coffee than I should, and eaten just junk today, all trying to get through a long day of work then a late meeting, but when I got home I'm still so agitated and upset for no reason and I started cleaning again and literally 5 mins in found half a bottle of wine.honest to god have no memory of putting that in my tshirt drawer (I hid alcohol everywhere so I shouldn't be surprised I guess)
Now I'm in bed exhausted and angry and restless and wanting to drink this so bad. I put it in a cupboard by my bed, I know I need to get rid of it but I so want it tonight
18 days today, ugh
Posting here has always helped before, fingers crossed it does tonight

sugarbear1

dump it down a drain or toilet now. you'll sleep better

Wholesome

Just pour it out so you can get some sleep. You will feel better for it.

cardoon

Sorry you're struggling. If it was me I'd get up and pour it out. You'll feel really good that you did tomorrow. It will help with your resolve and confidence.

Dee74

Early recovery is rough but it will get better immri.
Don't make it even rougher on yourself tho - dump the wine. Now.

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BernieE

I'm joining the crowd in saying dump it. You'll feel better when the temptation is gone.

Ruby2

Keeping it for no good reason means you aren't ready yet and are keeping a "security" blanket. It's false security. Congratulations on 17 days. You don't want to have to start over. Dump it.

LBrain

here:

Soberwolf

Pour it away your doing really well immri

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Jupiters

open it.
dump it.
flush it.

done!

Niamh

I'm with the rest. Pour it out ASAP. Hang in there, you can do it.

Nonsensical

This happened to me early on in my sobriety process (technically I'd call it late in my addiction, but that's another story). I found a pint of bourbon in the bushes. I think it was a Monday, and I thought, I'll keep it and maybe I'll drink it this weekend if I manage to go all week without.

I slept horribly that night. The next day at work I kept thinking about that bottle of bourbon. When can I drink it? When can I drink it? When can I drink it?

I went home that day and couldn't think of anything else for about 2 hours. I was obsessed. In a moment of clarity I fetched that bottle and poured it down the sink.

The relief was nearly immediate and nearly complete.

Dump it. You'll be glad you did.

rAAt

Dump the bottle, your keeping it 'in case' of what, no 18th day sober?

SoberLeigh

Dump that poison, immri.

I vote for the toilet; it's a little more ceremonious!!!!!

Hang tough, immri. Sobriety and recovery are worth the time, effort, pain . . . .

PurpleKnight

Don't throw away 18 Days, you don't want to have to go through all this again!!

You can do this!! Keep pushing through!!

mrjustin

Tip it in the toilet where the crap belongs. I wouldn't stress about having a smoke or junk food right now.

But just dont drink alcohol!

18 says sober was hard earned.

If you drank it you will just feel guilty and crap tomorrow and back to square one.

You dont need this poisonous **** in your life.

Keep us updated I want to know you flushed it.

Do it for me the crap nearly killed me. Im proof you can get through this at 70 days sober.

SoberCAH

I won't repeat the good advice posted above, but that garbage can only do more harm than good.

When I had just gotten out of the treatment center, I ran across an aspirin container (one of those pocket-sized tin containers) which had some Xanax in it.

It scared me to death, and I pulled my hand back like I had reached in the sock drawer and accidentally grabbed a rattlesnake.

I quickly flushed the pills down the toilet, because I didn't want to think of the danger they posed being in the same house as myself (in early sobriety).

Let us know what you do.

Serenidad

I agree!!! You can do it!!!

immri

Thanks everyone for all the encouragement, I didn't flush it last night I just went to sleep and slept so badly now I have a headache and feel gross without even having any wine, ugh. I leave for work in an hour, I either need to dump it or drink it by then or I just know I'm going to be obsessing all day. Pretty certain il get rid of it, just being honest im not 100% decided

immri

Ok ignore that it's going down the toilet