thousandwords53

And I'm freaking out man!

I need to once again, talk with AH, let him know that I really do need time separate from him. After going cold turkey and saying he would see a professional (hasn't yet) I told him not to stress about finding somewhere to live.

But I came to realize that that wasn't enough, for him to be on good behavior, I can't forget the past. And don't trust his future. I glorify the good moments and get amnesia for the bad.

He came home drunk after the super bowl on Sunday, he wasn't mean or anything: but he did drive home that way, and was just sloppy and had gross drunk eyes I hate.

Then the next day,it's all "I love you" and he made dinner and....yeah.
I DO LOVE HIM. But I really don't want to be with him for now. Maybe forever I don't know.

So now I have to deal with my emotions and sticking to my plan.

Thanks again for the vent.

knowthetriggers

Vent all you need. We are here for support!

I hope all goes well and you will finally be able to focus on yourself!

Take care

maia1234

You can love him from a distance.

Do what you are strong enough to do my friend.

Honshine

Oooooh the drunk eyes cut right through my patience.

>_< but u seem like ur doing good thus far. Just Breathe and do you. Everything else will follow.

changeneeded

I thought it was me, (sloppy and drunk eyes) I Kind off got a chuckle out of you saying he wasn't mean because, for some reason... I feel like it's the only time I can be angry about "it" (the drinking). I even mention it sometimes and he'll say: "What did I do? we didn't fight"

Don't want to side-track. Just want to say. CONGRATS. WAHOO! Good for you! Stick with it and enjoy!!!

pinkpeony

Good for you!!!

Take care of you.