Looking to get back on track
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Looking to get back on track
I don't want alcohol to be a part of my life anymore. My drinking is getting worse to the point where I always find myself in ridiculous situations. I felt I was on a bad spiral, and despite the self-destructive nature I felt like I didn't want to stop. I woke up today finally wanting to end this, and give sobriety another try.
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I feel like I was avoiding SR – since as ridiculous as it sounds I didn’t want to be convinced out of drinking. The worst thing is when I get stuck in a destructive path and I don’t want to stop.
I just feel things are really getting serious now. I can’t handle the hangovers anymore. I can’t keep calling in sick to work. I am fortunate to have a chance to right this ship. I may not be so lucky in the future.
One of my friends has been trying to help me get sober, and I made her cry yesterday. I just feel so selfish and worthless. I am fortunate to have caring people in my life – and I just take it for granted.
I went to a few different bars last night and they all knew me. One bar the guy even knew the drink I like. It is just embarrassing.
Last night, I acted belligerent and just feel a wave of shame.
My drinking was all premeditated and I could feel myself drifting off. I know I have to stick to the daily threads. It’s a new month so I have a fresh start at sobriety.
I just feel things are really getting serious now. I can’t handle the hangovers anymore. I can’t keep calling in sick to work. I am fortunate to have a chance to right this ship. I may not be so lucky in the future.
One of my friends has been trying to help me get sober, and I made her cry yesterday. I just feel so selfish and worthless. I am fortunate to have caring people in my life – and I just take it for granted.
I went to a few different bars last night and they all knew me. One bar the guy even knew the drink I like. It is just embarrassing.
Last night, I acted belligerent and just feel a wave of shame.
My drinking was all premeditated and I could feel myself drifting off. I know I have to stick to the daily threads. It’s a new month so I have a fresh start at sobriety.
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Glad you woke up and want to stop.
I was in that downward spiral for years. I sold or pawned everything I owned for booze and became homeless, sleeping on friends couches. Still I drank. I didn't want to stop either, and that's where it got me. And it gets worse.
I, too, woke up one hungover morning and wanted to stop. I called AA and met an Angel who knew exactly where I was coming form.
I attended meetings and put together some sobriety, but slowly slipped back to my old ways.
A bug was planted in my ear, though. I had met people who had successfully stopped drinking. I wanted what they had.
It took me a long time to quit, but it took me a long time to become a pitiful drunk.
Been sober now for four years. You can do it, too.
Whether you decide to join a program of recovery or just come here, you can do it.
I did it one day at a time. That I can manage.
Best to you.
I was in that downward spiral for years. I sold or pawned everything I owned for booze and became homeless, sleeping on friends couches. Still I drank. I didn't want to stop either, and that's where it got me. And it gets worse.
I, too, woke up one hungover morning and wanted to stop. I called AA and met an Angel who knew exactly where I was coming form.
I attended meetings and put together some sobriety, but slowly slipped back to my old ways.
A bug was planted in my ear, though. I had met people who had successfully stopped drinking. I wanted what they had.
It took me a long time to quit, but it took me a long time to become a pitiful drunk.
Been sober now for four years. You can do it, too.
Whether you decide to join a program of recovery or just come here, you can do it.
I did it one day at a time. That I can manage.
Best to you.
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ANDNYC - where are you from in NY? I grew up there, elementary in queens, middle school in Manhattan, High School in the Bronx, college and grad in NY. Recently left (2.5yrs ago) for a new country called Texas, never looked back after 38 yrs
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The bartenders around my neighbourhood all knew what I drank too. I was the type to sit on a stool for 4 hours straight. When you order 10 pints of the same beer, it makes it easy for them to remember. Some of these places I have made a fool of myself in front of strangers and not really know what I did.
I spent a fortune in these bars and would then have to survive off a loaf of bread and hotdogs until next payday. I just felt so pathetic and shameful that I needed to drink again to rid the feelings of doom. Rinse and repeat.
It's no way to live.
I spent a fortune in these bars and would then have to survive off a loaf of bread and hotdogs until next payday. I just felt so pathetic and shameful that I needed to drink again to rid the feelings of doom. Rinse and repeat.
It's no way to live.
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NOT selfish and worthless - but an alcoholic. 
I was in the same tailspin when I found SR. Each time booze got in my system anything could - and did - happen. I had to get free and stay that way. Life is so much better without that terrible uncertainty hanging over us. You can do it NYC.
I was in the same tailspin when I found SR. Each time booze got in my system anything could - and did - happen. I had to get free and stay that way. Life is so much better without that terrible uncertainty hanging over us. You can do it NYC.
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