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I forgot all about this forum, I had joined a few years ago I think, and then today, after a week of being sober (again) I received an email in my old email account from SoberRecover, wishing me a happy birthday. Today is my birthday.
I feel good that I have not had a drink for a week now. This weekend I am going to a Sabre Tai Chi workshop, which is a birthday gift in itself since I have been waiting a long time for the chance to learn that form. (I practice the regular form of Tai Chi.)
Anyway, the long and short of it is, I sobered up in 2013 for the whole year, and last January when I left my husband I decided I could try to be the social drinker that everyone around seems to be able to be, but it was really a year of hell. Trying to set limits on my drinking and failing over and over again has gotten me to such a state of self loathing, I cannot tell you. Although I am sure there are many people in this forum who understand. I feel ready to let that self loathing go, by my choice to not drink TODAY. That is all I can think about. Making the choices for today that will allow me to feel healthy and happy, physically, mentally, and spiritually. I hope to be around a lot because I know I need to share this journey with someone. I have been in and out of AA but that is just not for me, but I know I need others in my life trying to achieve a healthy day, one after the other.
Thanks for listening to my spiel!
Bluejay
I forgot all about this forum, I had joined a few years ago I think, and then today, after a week of being sober (again) I received an email in my old email account from SoberRecover, wishing me a happy birthday. Today is my birthday.
I feel good that I have not had a drink for a week now. This weekend I am going to a Sabre Tai Chi workshop, which is a birthday gift in itself since I have been waiting a long time for the chance to learn that form. (I practice the regular form of Tai Chi.)
Anyway, the long and short of it is, I sobered up in 2013 for the whole year, and last January when I left my husband I decided I could try to be the social drinker that everyone around seems to be able to be, but it was really a year of hell. Trying to set limits on my drinking and failing over and over again has gotten me to such a state of self loathing, I cannot tell you. Although I am sure there are many people in this forum who understand. I feel ready to let that self loathing go, by my choice to not drink TODAY. That is all I can think about. Making the choices for today that will allow me to feel healthy and happy, physically, mentally, and spiritually. I hope to be around a lot because I know I need to share this journey with someone. I have been in and out of AA but that is just not for me, but I know I need others in my life trying to achieve a healthy day, one after the other.
Thanks for listening to my spiel!
Bluejay
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: PA
Posts: 1,053
Hi Bluejay and welcome. I did a similar thing. Sobered up in 2011 then it just gradually got bad until I was hiding the vodka in the basement. No way to live. Welcome and there's still time to join us on the January thread. 😄
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