chloebaby

My bf gave me money for groceries. He is too trusting. I bought groceries but 4 tall boys too. Right now im buzzed. My first instinct is to go get more. I really don't want to though. I feel like I just don't care anymore about my life. I really just want to disappear. I lost everything already so who cares :-(

SDH73

Chloe, no! Step back and look at what you're doing. Is this what you want?

Put the drink down and find something more constructive to do.

Soberwolf

I would pour any remaining alcohol away

Alcohol isnt making your life better its worsening it more & more

You can do this but it starts with accepting that this is where alcohol leads when you drink & it only gets worse

dont buy anymore stick close to SR or try & get some rest

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

Good luck

doggonecarl

You are drinking, so in a way you are disappearing. Disappearing from the sober person you want to be.

Maybe your bf is too trusting, maybe you don't want to tell him to stop giving you money. Either way, there is a certain amount of integrity involved in getting and staying sober. You don't use the money to buy beer, and you stick to your sobriety plan.

Good luck.

Anna

I hope you make the decision to stop drinking now. I know it can seem bleak at times, and you think you've lost everything. Try to look at what you do have right now. You have a roof over your head, food in the cupboard, a boyfriend who trusts you - those are good things to start with.

headcase1

Stop!Stop!Stop! Start drinking water to fill yourself up.Call someone!

Ghostlight1

I care. I also know how you feel because I've been there. I didn't care and it seemed no one else cared either. Not that I cared how anyone else felt, I just wanted to get drunk. And that's what I did, over and over.
Problem was I didn't care about myself. My drunken self, because that's all I was- a drunk.
Spent the grocery money on booze, pawned or sold everything I owned. All for King alcohol.

Once I got my miserable self sober, after many, many attempts, I found the person I am now. I like myself now. I'm not such a bad person after all. Sober.
It's been four years now and I can deal with alcohol in one way, stay away from it. Far away.
I was a bad drunk. Now I'm not. There's a wonderful person inside of you just waiting to come out and it all starts with not taking that first drink. I did it. You can, too.
Best to you.

PurpleKnight

Believe me Chloe, there is a new chapter that you can write in your life, you don't need to settle for drinking your life away, you can draw a line in the sand and create a new, happier, Sober life for yourself.

There are many here on SR that can guarantee that life can much better without alcohol and that it can be done!!

Dee74

Chloe - this is not you

this is your addiction.

The trouble is the longer we drink the more chance there is of that stuff becoming true.

You still have the power to change course and stop this from becoming a self fulfilling prophecy.

I really hope you dump the rest and recommit to recovery

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Jsbodhi

(((( hug))))