That long road...
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That long road...
Hello,
I'm just looking for that extra little bit of support to help me maintain motivation and remember why I'm doing this when "the voice" starts to rationalize.
I'm 40 years old. I remember very few days without drinks since I was about 20. The last couple years I've started to feel physically bad, and it's changed my personality when I drink as well (I used to be a very steady drunk). A year and a half ago I quit for 2 weeks, then slowly went back to my old self. Recently, when intoxicated, I said things to very close friends that I love that hurt one of them very deeply. A rock-bottom moment for me. I never want to be that person again, and feel sure if I had been sober it never would have happened.
I'm on day 9 of total abstinence. I hate it, but I feel better physically and mentally. Every evening is a struggle. But I need to do this...for a good long time, or quite possibly forever. But I'm proud of what I've done, and now just need to not pat myself on the back so hard that I rationalize a drink. I. Must. Do. This. And I will.
Thanks for input, advice, support you might offer.
Duck
I'm just looking for that extra little bit of support to help me maintain motivation and remember why I'm doing this when "the voice" starts to rationalize.
I'm 40 years old. I remember very few days without drinks since I was about 20. The last couple years I've started to feel physically bad, and it's changed my personality when I drink as well (I used to be a very steady drunk). A year and a half ago I quit for 2 weeks, then slowly went back to my old self. Recently, when intoxicated, I said things to very close friends that I love that hurt one of them very deeply. A rock-bottom moment for me. I never want to be that person again, and feel sure if I had been sober it never would have happened.
I'm on day 9 of total abstinence. I hate it, but I feel better physically and mentally. Every evening is a struggle. But I need to do this...for a good long time, or quite possibly forever. But I'm proud of what I've done, and now just need to not pat myself on the back so hard that I rationalize a drink. I. Must. Do. This. And I will.
Thanks for input, advice, support you might offer.
Duck
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Join Date: Jan 2015
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Hey I'm 41 and on day 9, and I have drank for 20yrs as well. This is a great site and I've meet a lot of nice genuine people here. Just hang in there, you can do it. Congratulations on your choice and Welcome.
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Thank you for the support already. It's good to know that tonight, when I'm probably struggling, I can pop on here and have folks to talk to and help me be strong.
Much appreciated. I've got this. We've got this.
Much appreciated. I've got this. We've got this.
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Join Date: Jan 2015
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Hey well done on day 9...I think that's really important, not to become so pleased and complacent that we rationalise deserving a drink. That's something my head has started doing lately but u know that's the addictive voice not the rational voice that knows it wouldn't just be one drink or one night. Keep vigilant is key xx
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I'm 41 years old and coming up to 3 years sober.
I had many cringe moments, did things I regret now and hurt people.
I hated myself back then.
I feel better about myself now.
Its nice knowing that as long as I never drink again, no-one will be upset or hurt or offended t my drunken actions.
I never have to wake up and think oh no - what happened?
It makes life a lot more peaceful knowing that.
I wish you the best xx
I had many cringe moments, did things I regret now and hurt people.
I hated myself back then.
I feel better about myself now.
Its nice knowing that as long as I never drink again, no-one will be upset or hurt or offended t my drunken actions.
I never have to wake up and think oh no - what happened?
It makes life a lot more peaceful knowing that.
I wish you the best xx
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Join Date: Nov 2012
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I agree with my European friend Sasha - it's much better on this side of the fence. Keep it up Duckguy.
I'm a 39 year-old dude and I'm over 2.5 years sober. The changes in my health and outlook on life have changed significantly. Stop drinking and you'll be able to live a more manageable life. Period. Go for it man, we're here to support you.
I'm a 39 year-old dude and I'm over 2.5 years sober. The changes in my health and outlook on life have changed significantly. Stop drinking and you'll be able to live a more manageable life. Period. Go for it man, we're here to support you.
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11 Days today. Thanks for all the support, everyone.
Went out to a Mexican restaurant with friends last night. My first real "test" in a social environment. I admit, the cold beers with lime and margaritas looked so amazingly good...but I sucked it up, remembered how I am when I'm a drunk, and drank my gross, sweet Pepsi. Funny thing - I still had a great time.
I sure do appreciate this place already.
Went out to a Mexican restaurant with friends last night. My first real "test" in a social environment. I admit, the cold beers with lime and margaritas looked so amazingly good...but I sucked it up, remembered how I am when I'm a drunk, and drank my gross, sweet Pepsi. Funny thing - I still had a great time.
I sure do appreciate this place already.
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