ill tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife
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ill tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife
This song is the most beautiful/ sad song but every time I hear it it pretty much sums up me and alc relationship...
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Hozier - Take Me To Church: http://youtu.be/PVjiKRfKpPI
Going to aa meeting tommorow havent been in years didnt like it before but im fighting the good fight and am willing to try anything to keep sober...im going to beat this **** i will get through this phase I will have a life and I will try every tool I have to do this this time...thanks for all the support sr and godspeed to all those in my shoes clawing their way out of this nightmare.
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Hozier - Take Me To Church: http://youtu.be/PVjiKRfKpPI
Going to aa meeting tommorow havent been in years didnt like it before but im fighting the good fight and am willing to try anything to keep sober...im going to beat this **** i will get through this phase I will have a life and I will try every tool I have to do this this time...thanks for all the support sr and godspeed to all those in my shoes clawing their way out of this nightmare.
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I went back and read some of your past posts. I have a suggestion. I have a hunch that you could be dealing with depression and/or grief issues which are exacerbating your alcoholism. As much as I agree with your decision to go to AA, I would also suggest a consultation for grief and/or depression. I think you have two difficult problems to address, and it's best to address them concurrently. But again, that's just a hunch.
All the best to you.
All the best to you.
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Originally Posted by awuh1 
I went back and read some of your past posts. I have a suggestion. I have a hunch that you could be dealing with depression and/or grief issues which are exacerbating your alcoholism. As much as I agree with your decision to go to AA, I would also suggest a consultation for grief and/or depression. I think you have two difficult problems to address, and it's best to address them concurrently. But again, that's just a hunch.
All the best to you.
All the best to you.
. So thanks for suggesting but im already doing that Member
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Having my only sibling die from a heroin overdose, having my fiance beat me, and having a misscarriage all together in a time span of three months definitely threw me over board so I have had counseling for these things since...there most of the reason I drink...but im doing ok and being sober will help because I know I can get part of me back I just havent wanted to until this last time...I feel like its time for me to fight for me not wallow in things I cannot change. Life wont wait for me so I dont want to waste anymore precious time drinking it away...although I may never get a perfect fix and ill have down days atleast ill have a choice and not be six feet under. Sending everyone on sr love n light to a new day tommorow.
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That's good. The depression/grief dimension is being covered.
I'm not sure what difficulty you may have had with regard to AA. I had some of my own in the beginning. I would make every effort to keep an open mind and consider everything you hear without dismissing any of it, at least until you consider it very carefully. That's what helped me anyway.
You sound determined, and that's good.
All the best.
I'm not sure what difficulty you may have had with regard to AA. I had some of my own in the beginning. I would make every effort to keep an open mind and consider everything you hear without dismissing any of it, at least until you consider it very carefully. That's what helped me anyway.
You sound determined, and that's good.
All the best.
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My experience with AA was that the stuff on the wall looked too scary first time round.
After alcohol had its way with me a few more years, the stuff on the wall looked like kissing a kitten.
Best of luck with your sobriety
After alcohol had its way with me a few more years, the stuff on the wall looked like kissing a kitten.
Best of luck with your sobriety
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Just got my welcome back chip...meeting was good... atleast took my mind of drinking for two hours...might go back tonight...its terrible I have to give a public speech this wednesday and im having insane anxiety about it and my stupid av is like if u drink youll be relaxed and not shaky...so it will be a good test forcing through with it without drinking it will definitely test me but I know I can do it even if I have shaky hands i just need to not think about that and not care if im nervous the whole way through.
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Originally Posted by rocky123
Just got my welcome back chip...meeting was good... atleast took my mind of drinking for two hours...might go back tonight...its terrible I have to give a public speech this wednesday and im having insane anxiety about it and my stupid av is like if u drink youll be relaxed and not shaky...so it will be a good test forcing through with it without drinking it will definitely test me but I know I can do it even if I have shaky hands i just need to not think about that and not care if im nervous the whole way through.
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You're doing great, Rocky hun 
Perhaps focus on getting your speech right through practice, rather than having to rely on drink on the night. I'm a performer, so I know about those nerves.
You 'll rock it, no doubt.
Thanks for the tune x
Perhaps focus on getting your speech right through practice, rather than having to rely on drink on the night. I'm a performer, so I know about those nerves.
You 'll rock it, no doubt.
Thanks for the tune x
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