packfan

Staring down the barell of a weekend and scared to death. I have 48 hours behind me and I can't screw this up. I need to attend a meeting tonight, my first one was last night and I drove almost 2 hours away where a dear friend met me and attended with me. Scared to death to attend one in my home town. starting to have that, "screw it, I can figure this out on my own" attitude. Trying to focus at work. I felt so good after the meeting last night and now I just feel like crap.

Jupiters

these are the times where we need to start building up the sober muscles.
each time you conquer and destroy one of these battles, we get a *little* stronger. Don't cave. Get to a meeting. Go to the gym. Post here all weekend if you have to.
The weekends get easier as you gain time, they really do. I can't even imagine spending my weekends drunk or hung over any longer. Wasting precious time.
Stay strong.

SoberLeigh

Stay the course, packman. Gather all the support that you can.

The meeting in your home town will go well.

Report back to us after the meeting; we will be here for you - 24/7/365.

Welcome to SR!!!!!

Soberwolf

Hi Packfan try & call that friend explain how your feeling it really helps

Hope you get to a mtn if you go to one in your hometown itl be fine im sure

Your doing really well here try this aswell its very useful http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

Stick close to SR and surround yourself with your sober buds send a couple pm's

For what its worth i want you to know your doing really well

IOAA2

"screw it, I can figure this out on my own"

Hi.
As a TV personality person would say: “How’s it working for you?”

Most times our way is totally a waste of time and effort on the road of long term sobriety if we are alcoholic.
The answer is we don’t drink one day at a time in a row, even if we want to.

Work and changes help speed up the process.

BE WELL

packfan

Just reached in my pocket, pulled out my "24 hour" coin and held on to it. I keep telling myself I can do this, I can just go to the dang meeting, I need to go to the dang meeting, I'll feel better.....and so I type into the search engine, "second AA meeting" and this sight comes up and BAM.....4 replies to my whining. how cool is that.? THANK YOU ALL! You got me through a mini meltdown!

FreeOwl

Go to the meeting tonight and hang in there! I felt like this too but I held on and recently turned my 24 hour coin into a 1 year coin. It is so worth it!

awuh1

I have a feeling that after attending the local meeting you will ask yourself why you wasted all that fear. I'll give you 10 to 1 odds that you'll be glad you walked through those doors and faced those fears. Admitting you have a problem is the sign of strength, not a weakness. Those in attendance have already made this admission. Time to step up. They'll welcome you.

BTW, Nice neck of the woods you are in!

packfan

wow, thank you, needed that! It's a sign of strength, those in attendance have already made that admission. it's because of my job....if I see someone who knows me via my job....feeling like they will doubt everything about me, but I know I have to let that go. 3 1/2 hours away from making myself walk through those doors.

SoberLeigh

Power ON, packman!!!!

OnMyWay7

Very brave to attend a meeting. I'm working up to it - told my doc and some friends I'm an alcoholic. Felt very brave after that.

Hang in there

packfan

"packFan" with an "F". as in the Green Bay Packers

packfan

first one was the hardest for me, then I walk in and it's ALL men, and I'm the only woman there. Very dear friend took me, we had dinner first so I could talk to him more about it. He's got 2 years in. It was so scary, mean I wanted to throw up. But when I left....wow. that's why I don't know why the 2nd one feels scarier, because its here in my home town probably.....

FreeOwl

if you see anyone from your professional sphere, the most likely outcome will be that they have respect and empathy for you.... After all; they are there too.

sg1970

I was in exactly the same boat you are 6 months ago. Go to the meeting. You will feel great. Support is vital.

And when you worry about seeing someone you know remember, everyone is there for the same reason!

SoberLeigh

Ooops; sorry packfan!!!!!

mns1

You can do this Packfan!

Dee74

Stay with us packfan - there's tons of support here

Have you checked out our Class of January support thread yet?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-3-a-9.html

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gippy1968

Hey PackFan - TPG is a good group, I've been to a few meetings last summer and felt very welcomed. Don't fear any professional (or personal) recognition; if anything you'd gain respect and a confidant.

Good luck!

Freeport

It really does get easier with time, PackFan, but you've got to keep knocking out days one at a time. I'm sober going on six years, and I still get tempted, especially at ballgames, but nowhere near what I did 51/2 years ago.
I don't have to tell you that you're living in a hardcore drinking culture, Pack, but so are many (most) of the people on SR. You can learn to enjoy Packer games and other facets of your life without alcohol. You can do this.