I feel disgusting.
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I feel disgusting.
The first couple weeks after a relapse, I always feel so, so, low and disgusting.
My skin breaks out as a result from the binge/not showering/sleeping with makeup on/dehydration/whatever else.
I have alot of anxiety so I sweat constantly and that makes my hair frizzy and my make up run and my eyes water.
I eat bad (worse than I normally would) because I feel like crap and I'm trying to make myself feel better, which contributes to skin problems and weight gain and overall just feeling yucky. I swear I can see the pounds packing on, one by one.
I have no energy and feel awful so I stop going to the gym.
Every time I look in the mirror I want to VOMIT.
Yuck. I hope I never have to go through this again, because it is seriously not fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My skin breaks out as a result from the binge/not showering/sleeping with makeup on/dehydration/whatever else.
I have alot of anxiety so I sweat constantly and that makes my hair frizzy and my make up run and my eyes water.
I eat bad (worse than I normally would) because I feel like crap and I'm trying to make myself feel better, which contributes to skin problems and weight gain and overall just feeling yucky. I swear I can see the pounds packing on, one by one.
I have no energy and feel awful so I stop going to the gym.
Every time I look in the mirror I want to VOMIT.
Yuck. I hope I never have to go through this again, because it is seriously not fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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No, it isn't fun. I think that's why relapses are dangerous, because they push us down emotionally, physically and spiritually. I know at the end of my drinking days, I really believed I had no more chances to get it right.
Mrryah, you can do this.
Mrryah, you can do this.
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Every one of the conditions that you referenced improves with sobriety and with time.
So, stay sober. Give it time. And try not to be so hard on yourself. You are a much, much better person than you are giving your self credit for.
Good luck. Stay close.
So, stay sober. Give it time. And try not to be so hard on yourself. You are a much, much better person than you are giving your self credit for.
Good luck. Stay close.
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Join Date: Jul 2014
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Mrrryah,
Early on I came across this thread. Maybe you've read it, maybe not.
Felt like I'd share it with you if not.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...lly-again.html
Kindling is a term that caught my attention.
Best of luck to you
FlyN
Early on I came across this thread. Maybe you've read it, maybe not.
Felt like I'd share it with you if not.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...lly-again.html
Kindling is a term that caught my attention.
Best of luck to you
FlyN
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Join Date: Aug 2014
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It will get better i remember feeling all that stuff aswell i promise Mrrryah it gets better
For whats it worth you have had it tough & by staying sober you are doing so well & reinforcing your sobriety more than you know
(((Mrrryah)))
For whats it worth you have had it tough & by staying sober you are doing so well & reinforcing your sobriety more than you know
(((Mrrryah)))
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Just be careful not to let your AV use these feelings against you.
I know it's easy for me to say, but is there any way at all to pick out something about yourself you're happy with and focus on it? I think focusing on the negative is a way of staying stuck.
It's hard to practice self love/care when you're berating yourself. My sponsor used to tell me to treat/talk to myself as I would my best friend. I've still got miles to go on accepting & myself as I am in this moment, but these things help get me closer every day.
Hugs & love!
I know it's easy for me to say, but is there any way at all to pick out something about yourself you're happy with and focus on it? I think focusing on the negative is a way of staying stuck.
It's hard to practice self love/care when you're berating yourself. My sponsor used to tell me to treat/talk to myself as I would my best friend. I've still got miles to go on accepting & myself as I am in this moment, but these things help get me closer every day.
Hugs & love!
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Exercise helped me in those early post-drinking weeks.
Also I find that learning to keep myself out of the bottle has led to a lot more control over my diet, and control over my diet is control over my health and appearance -- it's pretty empowering. Exercise helps too, but it's mostly diet control.
Can always take a shower and feel sparkly clean too!
PS you are not low or disgusting, keep your chin up buddy
Also I find that learning to keep myself out of the bottle has led to a lot more control over my diet, and control over my diet is control over my health and appearance -- it's pretty empowering. Exercise helps too, but it's mostly diet control.
Can always take a shower and feel sparkly clean too!
PS you are not low or disgusting, keep your chin up buddy
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Join Date: Nov 2014
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I look like something from the undead every time I do a cleanse, your body is cleaning out, you'll look gorgeous in no time!
Force yourself to eat well, you'll look and feel better, you can control that.
Force yourself to eat well, you'll look and feel better, you can control that.
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