beach20

Hi dear ones in recovery,

My daughter in recovery is helping me to get out of an alcoholic and dysfunctional environment. She found an apartment in Dallas where she lives, and I have lived, and I have applied and am waiting on approval.

I am the one who posted about my siblings stealing money from my mom and alcohol flowing at night.

I am working my recovery plan and if all goes well, can leave on Sunday.

I am really tired and am going to watch Netflix and eat something healthy.

I have worked really hard on the resentment and anger towards my siblings and their families who also live here and live off my mom's meager ss income.

It sounds like we live in a dump. Not true. It is a custom built five bedroom house in a small, beautiful European Midwest town. But after having a breakdown one year ago and coming home to property that was not taken care of inside or out, I learned secrets of many years that just shocked me.

I actually told my siblings that is they didn't straighten up, I would report elder abuse.

Fast forward, I analyzed the financial situation, since I am good at that, and will present their options to them before I leave. I have barely been able to speak, although several months ago before getting sober and trying to get off horrible psych meds (I did!), I really let it rip.

Anyway, I hope that you will pray or send good vibes so that I am approved to move on Sunday. I plan to go to an AA meeting immediately.

I feel like I am going to be let out of jail. I am so sorry to have had to detach like this from my family. They really are good people, but they are very mixed up and I can't fix it.

I always hesitate to post, as I am generally a positive person and when I see all of us struggling to stay sober and the lives, I feel like I want to climb through the internet and hug everyone.

I hope I get approved for this apartment. My daughter is excited. And I feel sad that my siblings are scared of me, but maybe my newly forming boundaries and financial advice will set them on a path that is healthier.
It is a miracle that I forgave the person who sleeps next door, who sexually emotionally and physically abused me. But I did.

Love to all. Thank you for letting me write to you honestly.

Thepatman

You are very kind and have a great plan unfolding. Best of luck!

Blessings, and hugs ;-)

SoberLeigh

Sending prayers above that your application will be approved.

Hugs, beach.

PurpleKnight

Hope it all works out!! Definitely sending some positive vibes Beach!!

Soberwolf

Your doing really well beach i hope you get the approval for the apartment

Keep on keeping on

Anna

Beach, I think it's wonderful that you and your daughter are both looking forward to your move and settling close to each other.

Try to let go of the resentment and anger, especially during this period when you are moving. You will need all your energy to use positively in your life.

I'm so glad you are feeling good about your choice to move.

Sasha4

This is something good for you Beach.

I think you deserve an uncomplicated, stress free, happy, relaxed environment to live in.
The fact your daughter is also going to be in this environment is fantastic.

I think by giving your advice, you have done the best you can.
You can leave with your head held high.

I have everything crossed your approval is granted.

I wish you the best xx

JadedGirl

Wishing you all the best and hoping this move works out well for you Hun you deserve it!! (Hugs) xx

Hevyn

You have my prayers too Beach.

beach20

I feel your arms around me and I thank you. I know it won't be easy, even though I have moved so many times in my life to great places and an interesting healthcare career.

I know now that I must let go and let God...because I filled out the application and my social security income is plenty enough to pay the rent.

And I know that "wherever you go there you are." But I gotta try this new sober life in a sober environment.

Anna, I will let go of the anger...use my energy for the move.

To all you who responded so quickly....I am grateful....I just re-read and if I can't sleep, I will get up and re-read your sweet responses!!!!!!~!

JadedGirl

You deserve the very best beach and I'm sure things will work out wonderfully for you :-) xx

SereneEdition

Sounds like you have a wonderful opportunity ahead of you. Good luck with your move.

Della1968

I will be thinking of you and wish you nothing but happiness!