8 years later...[short story and pics]
for myself
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Posts: 24
8 years later...
8 years of total spiritual mutilation, self-destruction and detaching myself from my higher power.
I can do this. I hope I can help others as others help me.
Hi, my name is Kori. I'm 21 years old. I am a daughter, a sister, and a mother. I have successfully burned all of my bridges within my family and friends. I have nobody left. Not even my daughter - as CPS has taken her away from me.
I also have no confidence, no self-worth, no self-respect...
I am changing that, though.
Here's a little story with pictures that depict the very serious, life-threatening disease which is addiction.
I came close to death in the summer of 2014, resulting in the loss of my 3 front teeth and a scar underneath my bottom lip. I still have symptoms from my concussion as well.
I was drinking and driving, not wearing my seat belt (the only passenger in the car not wearing a seat belt, to be exact). The car rolled while doing over 100km/hour down a dirt road. It is truly mind boggling, and I get sick to my stomach thinking about how incredibly blessed and lucky I am to be alive. Clearly an act of God to have kept me alive. I hate looking in the mirror today, but I also am very grateful that teeth and a few stitches were all that I needed.
That is the aftermath of my friend's vehicle.
And that is from today, almost 6 months after the accident. I still don't have teeth. I don't work and any money that I had went to drugs and alcohol.
I don't smile anymore.
I guess what I've come to realize is that I'm still alive for a reason. That I can prosper and succeed in every aspect of my life, as long as I am sober.
If there's a next time, I won't live through it. I know in my heart, that as long as I don't live a sober life, my fate will be death from my own hands.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope to find comfort and strength within this community and I really hope I can find someone to reach out to.
I can do this. I hope I can help others as others help me.
Hi, my name is Kori. I'm 21 years old. I am a daughter, a sister, and a mother. I have successfully burned all of my bridges within my family and friends. I have nobody left. Not even my daughter - as CPS has taken her away from me.
I also have no confidence, no self-worth, no self-respect...
I am changing that, though.
Here's a little story with pictures that depict the very serious, life-threatening disease which is addiction.
I came close to death in the summer of 2014, resulting in the loss of my 3 front teeth and a scar underneath my bottom lip. I still have symptoms from my concussion as well.
I was drinking and driving, not wearing my seat belt (the only passenger in the car not wearing a seat belt, to be exact). The car rolled while doing over 100km/hour down a dirt road. It is truly mind boggling, and I get sick to my stomach thinking about how incredibly blessed and lucky I am to be alive. Clearly an act of God to have kept me alive. I hate looking in the mirror today, but I also am very grateful that teeth and a few stitches were all that I needed.
That is the aftermath of my friend's vehicle.
And that is from today, almost 6 months after the accident. I still don't have teeth. I don't work and any money that I had went to drugs and alcohol.
I don't smile anymore.
I guess what I've come to realize is that I'm still alive for a reason. That I can prosper and succeed in every aspect of my life, as long as I am sober.
If there's a next time, I won't live through it. I know in my heart, that as long as I don't live a sober life, my fate will be death from my own hands.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope to find comfort and strength within this community and I really hope I can find someone to reach out to.
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Hi Flyingvacant well done on day 3 i really hope you choose to stay sober you have been very lucky and i would hold on to sobriety with all my life this has to be a turning point acceptance is key
Have you got a recovery plan (things youl do to stay sober)
You reach out whenever you need that is a great tool in sobriety
hugs
Have you got a recovery plan (things youl do to stay sober)
You reach out whenever you need that is a great tool in sobriety
hugs
Sober Soldier
Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: U.S.A.
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Originally Posted by flyingvacant 
That I can prosper and succeed in every aspect of my life, as long as I am sober.
You are so young and what has happened in your past does not have to define how you live the rest of your life.
Seek out any support that you can. If this is the best you can find right now, then come on here as much as you can.
We all have your back!
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Join Date: Aug 2013
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Hi.
This experience can be used as a “Remember When” point on your path to recovery. It can overcome your resistance to no when thinking I can have one or it wasn’t so bad.
Whatever non drinking program you choose it needs to be an every day process as so many seem to think that when they feel better they can go about their old ways. Very bad process that results in drinking again and being more miserable. Ask me how I know.
BE WELL
This experience can be used as a “Remember When” point on your path to recovery. It can overcome your resistance to no when thinking I can have one or it wasn’t so bad.
Whatever non drinking program you choose it needs to be an every day process as so many seem to think that when they feel better they can go about their old ways. Very bad process that results in drinking again and being more miserable. Ask me how I know.
BE WELL
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Join Date: Sep 2014
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Hi - its good that you are here. You do have self worth and you can prove to yourself and your family, that although you burned bridges....you can also build new ones. You are so young and you have a whole new life ahead of you!! Here is to LIFE and starting to live it 
Welcome to SR!!
Welcome to SR!!
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Join Date: Sep 2014
Posts: 349
Welcome flyingvacant. I know about 8 years of being a drunk. I have wasted the same amount of time too after being 7 years sober prior to that.
There are AA groups on-line and meetings that you can attend if you want. I don't know if I can post the links here, but just do a search on the Web and you will find them. It is a great resource for those of us who are in smaller towns.
I am only on Day One, so you have a head start over me. Good for you! You can do this and there are many, many other people here who have gotten and stayed sober.
For me, I will say the biggest part about getting and staying sober is you truly have to accept that you are someone who cannot drink. Once you have accepted that, it gets a little easier.
I am so glad you are here with us. Reach out for support whenever you need it.
There are AA groups on-line and meetings that you can attend if you want. I don't know if I can post the links here, but just do a search on the Web and you will find them. It is a great resource for those of us who are in smaller towns.
I am only on Day One, so you have a head start over me. Good for you! You can do this and there are many, many other people here who have gotten and stayed sober.
For me, I will say the biggest part about getting and staying sober is you truly have to accept that you are someone who cannot drink. Once you have accepted that, it gets a little easier.
I am so glad you are here with us. Reach out for support whenever you need it.
Member
Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,236
Hello and welcome to recovery.
My name is Sharon and I'm an alcoholic in
recovery for the last 24 yrs.
If I hadn't stayed in recovery for as long
as I have, I wouldn't know that there are
so many folks out there that have the same
similar story as I and knowing that I am
not alone is very comforting.
24 yrs ago I was a mom and wife at the
age of 30 and numbing my life with a
poison to help me get thru my restless,
irritable and discount life.
February 1990, I was on my way home
from a local club at 2 in the morning when
I ran into some road construction less than
a mile away from home. My front wheel
hit a 2ft cut out in the road causing my
car to veer off the road plowing into a concrete
culvert sitting on top the ground.
A passer by saw my accident and called
it in. I don't recall much after I hit the
culvert, but EMS came to get me, cutting
me out of the wreckage and taking me
to the hospital. They told me I kept saying,
my babies, my babies and so they looked
around to find my babies.
I spent 10 days in the hospital with them
repairing my punctured spleen so I wouldn't
bleed to death. Then fluid was drained from
my lung to help me breath along with numerous
bruises, contusions, broken ribs and bones. Yes,
I was pretty messed up.
It took me a good 3 or 4 months to heal quite
nicely with just the meds I was taken for pain.
No alcohol during that time. THEN, in August
1990, after my beast had been quiet for those
3 months, I picked up a drink, ending up at the
same club and then driving home in the wee
hours.
This time I did make it home, but once again
had another argument with my spouse and
on a dare that I would just end my miserable
failure of a life and downed a hand full of pills
from my accident and went off to bed.
No, I didn't think about the consequences of
my actions or behavior when I took those pills
or how it would affect my family. Then my 2
little one, about 4 and 6 tried to wake me up
for their last day of vaction bible school with
no success.
Then.......
In a far distant I could hear the ringing of
a bell which was my phone right next to my
bed. I answered with a groggy, slurred voice
with my mother in law looking for me and
the kids at the church. She asked what was
happening and yelled at me to get up.
So I hung up, drug myself to the bathroom
to throw up what was in my system. Before
I knew it my husband was with us trying to
haul me to the car to take me to the hospital
to get my stomach pumped. Of course I fought
him off because I felt better and didn't need
to go.
All of a sudden the house became quiet as
I was left alone. THEN, I recall seeing 2 officers
in my house asking me to follow them because
they were taking me away. Where, I didn't know
or understand at that time. As I walked to the
back door, I passed my husband and father in
law staring at them and mouthing, I HATE YOU
and off I was led to the back of the police car.
That was my intervention where my family
get me help that I so desperately needed at
that time in my life.
That first night I spent in the hospital with
other patiants shuffling across the floor or
hugging the wall. I was scared and shocked
to see where I was and thought to myself
I was surely not like these other folks.
The next day I was evaluated and passed all
the mental tests with them telling me all I have
is a problem with was drinking. An addiction
to alcohol. Soooooooo......
I was to remain in the addiction part of the
hospital or rehab for 2 weeks away from my
little family to learn about my addiction and
receive some helpful tools to use in my life
once I returned home.
2 weeks came and I was told that if I returned
home I would surely drink again because they
could see I wasn't ready to live life without
alcohol. They could tell I was still full of anger
and resentments towards my family for what
they did to me as well as family issues.
They wanted to send me to a halfway house for
6 weeks away from my family. I was so scared
and didn't want to leave my family. Really all
I wanted to do was go home. BUT.......
I pleaded with them to let me stay where I
was and that I would do whatever I needed
to do, just don't send me away. They agreed
and I remained there for 28 days with a 6 week
out patient aftercare program tacked on when
I was released.
That was 24 yrs ago when I entered recovery
and today I continue on with my journey passing
on my own ESH - experiences, strengths and
hopes of what my life was and is like before,
during and after alcohol.
I Listened, Learned, Absorbed and Applied
all that I could and still do to remain sober,
healthy, happy and honest in all my affairs.
You can too..!!!!
My name is Sharon and I'm an alcoholic in
recovery for the last 24 yrs.
If I hadn't stayed in recovery for as long
as I have, I wouldn't know that there are
so many folks out there that have the same
similar story as I and knowing that I am
not alone is very comforting.
24 yrs ago I was a mom and wife at the
age of 30 and numbing my life with a
poison to help me get thru my restless,
irritable and discount life.
February 1990, I was on my way home
from a local club at 2 in the morning when
I ran into some road construction less than
a mile away from home. My front wheel
hit a 2ft cut out in the road causing my
car to veer off the road plowing into a concrete
culvert sitting on top the ground.
A passer by saw my accident and called
it in. I don't recall much after I hit the
culvert, but EMS came to get me, cutting
me out of the wreckage and taking me
to the hospital. They told me I kept saying,
my babies, my babies and so they looked
around to find my babies.
I spent 10 days in the hospital with them
repairing my punctured spleen so I wouldn't
bleed to death. Then fluid was drained from
my lung to help me breath along with numerous
bruises, contusions, broken ribs and bones. Yes,
I was pretty messed up.
It took me a good 3 or 4 months to heal quite
nicely with just the meds I was taken for pain.
No alcohol during that time. THEN, in August
1990, after my beast had been quiet for those
3 months, I picked up a drink, ending up at the
same club and then driving home in the wee
hours.
This time I did make it home, but once again
had another argument with my spouse and
on a dare that I would just end my miserable
failure of a life and downed a hand full of pills
from my accident and went off to bed.
No, I didn't think about the consequences of
my actions or behavior when I took those pills
or how it would affect my family. Then my 2
little one, about 4 and 6 tried to wake me up
for their last day of vaction bible school with
no success.
Then.......
In a far distant I could hear the ringing of
a bell which was my phone right next to my
bed. I answered with a groggy, slurred voice
with my mother in law looking for me and
the kids at the church. She asked what was
happening and yelled at me to get up.
So I hung up, drug myself to the bathroom
to throw up what was in my system. Before
I knew it my husband was with us trying to
haul me to the car to take me to the hospital
to get my stomach pumped. Of course I fought
him off because I felt better and didn't need
to go.
All of a sudden the house became quiet as
I was left alone. THEN, I recall seeing 2 officers
in my house asking me to follow them because
they were taking me away. Where, I didn't know
or understand at that time. As I walked to the
back door, I passed my husband and father in
law staring at them and mouthing, I HATE YOU
and off I was led to the back of the police car.
That was my intervention where my family
get me help that I so desperately needed at
that time in my life.
That first night I spent in the hospital with
other patiants shuffling across the floor or
hugging the wall. I was scared and shocked
to see where I was and thought to myself
I was surely not like these other folks.
The next day I was evaluated and passed all
the mental tests with them telling me all I have
is a problem with was drinking. An addiction
to alcohol. Soooooooo......
I was to remain in the addiction part of the
hospital or rehab for 2 weeks away from my
little family to learn about my addiction and
receive some helpful tools to use in my life
once I returned home.
2 weeks came and I was told that if I returned
home I would surely drink again because they
could see I wasn't ready to live life without
alcohol. They could tell I was still full of anger
and resentments towards my family for what
they did to me as well as family issues.
They wanted to send me to a halfway house for
6 weeks away from my family. I was so scared
and didn't want to leave my family. Really all
I wanted to do was go home. BUT.......
I pleaded with them to let me stay where I
was and that I would do whatever I needed
to do, just don't send me away. They agreed
and I remained there for 28 days with a 6 week
out patient aftercare program tacked on when
I was released.
That was 24 yrs ago when I entered recovery
and today I continue on with my journey passing
on my own ESH - experiences, strengths and
hopes of what my life was and is like before,
during and after alcohol.
I Listened, Learned, Absorbed and Applied
all that I could and still do to remain sober,
healthy, happy and honest in all my affairs.
You can too..!!!!
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