Day 1
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 114
Day 1
Hi there, sorry if I don't do this right its a first for me.
I am a 57 years old female who works in the medical field in New Zealand.
I have been a very heavy drinker with high tolerance since I first took a drink aged 15. I also have a strong family history of alcohol abuse. I use alcohol when I am happy ,sad, up, down, angry and as a reward for anything I can think of. I have continued to be a high achiever in my work area despite this.
From today I want to be completely alcohol free forever. Never a day goes by without me being focused on alcohol. I'm either saying "yes I will " or "no I shouldn't" or "just get this job finished and then you can drink" I want to know what it is like to have a life that does not include alcohol. I need to remember how to have fun and be spontaneous. I have spent my life planning everything around when it would be safe to binge on alcohol without getting found out.
Actually I am feeling more relaxed already as I write and get my thoughts down. Thank you to all of you for being out there. I know it will probably be harder before it gets easier. Its good to know someone is there to talk to
I am a 57 years old female who works in the medical field in New Zealand.
I have been a very heavy drinker with high tolerance since I first took a drink aged 15. I also have a strong family history of alcohol abuse. I use alcohol when I am happy ,sad, up, down, angry and as a reward for anything I can think of. I have continued to be a high achiever in my work area despite this.
From today I want to be completely alcohol free forever. Never a day goes by without me being focused on alcohol. I'm either saying "yes I will " or "no I shouldn't" or "just get this job finished and then you can drink" I want to know what it is like to have a life that does not include alcohol. I need to remember how to have fun and be spontaneous. I have spent my life planning everything around when it would be safe to binge on alcohol without getting found out.
Actually I am feeling more relaxed already as I write and get my thoughts down. Thank you to all of you for being out there. I know it will probably be harder before it gets easier. Its good to know someone is there to talk to
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: former texan
Posts: 216
Welcome. I'm day 1'ing this myself as well. My last drink was at 3 am night before. At 3am tomorrow(ish) I will have made 24 hours. I probably won't sleep and I am accepting it. I hope. I went to AA tonight. So I'm just going to take it minute by minute, maybe hour by hour. If you're up I am here. As I watch tv I'll be checking. Best wishes
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: Wisconsin, USA
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Welcome Leb. Writing things down and sharing here can be very helpful, you will also find a tremendous amount of info and support. Congratulations on your decision to get sober as well, it only gets better from here in out.
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Omaha, NE
Posts: 49
Welcome Leb! You took the words out of my mouth! You can do this! Have you checked out Rational Recovery? It really helped me get a grip on what addiction is and gave me a sense of relief that I COULD be free of it immediately! I'm finishing up day 4- I hope your day 1 ended up with some great feelings of accomplishment and determination! I would love to chat/share stories/listen or whatever! Take some deep breaths and believe in yourself and the fact that you can be the person you want to be-right now.
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Join Date: Oct 2014
Location: England
Posts: 1,859
Welcome to the family, Leb 
You're about where I was when I stopped in October last year. Drinking since 14, now 52, sick to death of it.
It is a roller coaster at first but it passes.
You ll find tons of support here. Stay close !
You're about where I was when I stopped in October last year. Drinking since 14, now 52, sick to death of it.
It is a roller coaster at first but it passes.
You ll find tons of support here. Stay close !
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