Hey,dysfunctional me; it's me
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Hey,dysfunctional me; it's me
Hello to my dysfunctional self- this is your rational self talking. I know you couldn't sleep last night. I know you are confused and hurt and angry. Yep, I get it. And rightfully so.
Here is the problem dysfunctional self: you are disappearing. The stronger I (rational self) get, the weaker you become and I am running out of excuses to allow you to continue running this show.
The funny thing about getting smarter is you no longer have the "I didn't know that" card to play. You DO know. Yeah, I get it; easier said than done, right? Is that right? I mean, if you think about, it's not really an accurate statement. It would be HARDER on me for you to continue taking the abuse. I'm trying to grow and your screwing it up for me.
So dysfunctional me, it's time for me to take some action. I can no longer let you and your fear control my life. I don't care if you can't leave him now...just please stop engaging. Just shut it down while I keep gathering strength. I know it's scary for you to think of me pushing you out, but believe me, once your gone, I will be much happier. Dysfunctional me, you HAVE to go. I don't have time for you anymore. I have loved you for so long and nurtured you until you grew into a self-defeating monster. And I allowed you to do this.
So after learning all I have and trying to love myself, I have realized that I do love you dysfunctional me....but I have to let you go now.
just a vent, please & thank you
Here is the problem dysfunctional self: you are disappearing. The stronger I (rational self) get, the weaker you become and I am running out of excuses to allow you to continue running this show.
The funny thing about getting smarter is you no longer have the "I didn't know that" card to play. You DO know. Yeah, I get it; easier said than done, right? Is that right? I mean, if you think about, it's not really an accurate statement. It would be HARDER on me for you to continue taking the abuse. I'm trying to grow and your screwing it up for me.
So dysfunctional me, it's time for me to take some action. I can no longer let you and your fear control my life. I don't care if you can't leave him now...just please stop engaging. Just shut it down while I keep gathering strength. I know it's scary for you to think of me pushing you out, but believe me, once your gone, I will be much happier. Dysfunctional me, you HAVE to go. I don't have time for you anymore. I have loved you for so long and nurtured you until you grew into a self-defeating monster. And I allowed you to do this.
So after learning all I have and trying to love myself, I have realized that I do love you dysfunctional me....but I have to let you go now.
just a vent, please & thank you
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I'm sending love and kindness to dysfunctional you - just to let her know that she can sit back, relax and let you take over. She's always worked very hard on your behalf and it's time she retired.
For all of us, our dysfunction arose as a normal response to an abnormal situation, and it's OK to be gentle with ourselves.
(((HUGS)))
For all of us, our dysfunction arose as a normal response to an abnormal situation, and it's OK to be gentle with ourselves.
(((HUGS)))
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