Reaching out.
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Reaching out.
I just posted this to the January club and decided to repost it here so I could start a thread. So here it is:
Yesterday I was convinced that I would make it through the day without drinking. I had a plan: alternate drinks, tell myself the reasons why I want to quit. After failing I laid in bed unable to sleep, filled with anxiety and went over in my mind why I failed. My "plan" wasn't enough.
The mind is a powerful thing. The mind is a destructive thing. Which one will I let my mind be today? I know that that urge is going to come again today and I am going to fight it. My plan today is to think it through until the end. I am going to write the scenario in my journal. That has worked for me before. I am posting now, it makes me feel accountable. I have alternative drinks. I have a house full of family that is all drinking. I can't go escape to a book or a movie but I have my plan. When the av comes to get me this evening I am prepared to fight back.
Yesterday I was convinced that I would make it through the day without drinking. I had a plan: alternate drinks, tell myself the reasons why I want to quit. After failing I laid in bed unable to sleep, filled with anxiety and went over in my mind why I failed. My "plan" wasn't enough.
The mind is a powerful thing. The mind is a destructive thing. Which one will I let my mind be today? I know that that urge is going to come again today and I am going to fight it. My plan today is to think it through until the end. I am going to write the scenario in my journal. That has worked for me before. I am posting now, it makes me feel accountable. I have alternative drinks. I have a house full of family that is all drinking. I can't go escape to a book or a movie but I have my plan. When the av comes to get me this evening I am prepared to fight back.
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Just be true to yourself and you'll get there it took me three months from making the decision to doing it. One day I just did it. I'm talking 3 months of saying in not going to drink today and I failed for three months.
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You can escape to a book. You can walk away from the drinking.
You can leave the house and go somewhere else. You can go to a quiet place in the house and read or watch TV.
Distraction is a powerful tool in the sobriety toolbox.
You can leave the house and go somewhere else. You can go to a quiet place in the house and read or watch TV.
Distraction is a powerful tool in the sobriety toolbox.
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In my early days I clung to this site until I thought my hands were going to fall off. Stay here if you can and read, read, read. Also, keep reaching out - I can't stress that enough! I'm so proud of you for this post!! You're winning, not your AV!! Beat that stupid voice into submission 
2015 is YOUR year, Karen. Trust & believe that with all of your heart. We're with you every step of the way.
2015 is YOUR year, Karen. Trust & believe that with all of your heart. We're with you every step of the way.
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I agree with Soberleigh go to a quiet room and log on to SR we are here 24/7 lean on us for support
in the meantime if you hear the AV crush it with all the positivity sobriety will bring you
play the mental tape
you can do this and your not alone no more
in the meantime if you hear the AV crush it with all the positivity sobriety will bring you
play the mental tape
you can do this and your not alone no more
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Karen, you will be able to do this.
I would just offer the suggestion that you focus on the hardest times of the day for you, and be sure to be doing something different at that time. Very early evening was my hardest time, so I started going out for long walks right after supper. Changing your routine and habits can really help in the early days.
I would just offer the suggestion that you focus on the hardest times of the day for you, and be sure to be doing something different at that time. Very early evening was my hardest time, so I started going out for long walks right after supper. Changing your routine and habits can really help in the early days.
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Upminer, I have cranberry juice, apple juice, natural sodas, af beer, hot chocolate, an assortment of teas, sparkling pear juice. I've got that covered.
Thanks all for the uplifting remarks. HeartsAfire, it was nice to hear somebody say, "2015 is your year." My family is my worst trigger and they rarely have encouragement for me so your words were nice to hear.
Thanks all for the uplifting remarks. HeartsAfire, it was nice to hear somebody say, "2015 is your year." My family is my worst trigger and they rarely have encouragement for me so your words were nice to hear.
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Anna, normally I would be able to take your advice. I have a house full of family visiting here for short while with a grandson and daughter in law that I rarely get to see and don't know that well. I am trying to be an attentive grandmother and get to know my son. If I spend too much time away from the group it is obvious. I will slip out tonight and take the dogs for a quick walk.
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I am trying to be an attentive grandmother and get to know my son
Learn to reach out - it's more than ok to do that - noone need do this alone - and there's always someone here
you can do this
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In my pajamas and calling it a day. Day 1. I had so much stress today but I had my head in the right place to deal with it without a glass of wine in my hand. (Screaming husband, screaming toddler, scornful daughter, 3 big dogs in the house, stressed out cats.) Happy holidays. Get up tomorrow and do it again.
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