Christmas is over and I did not have a drink
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Christmas is over and I did not have a drink
I am currently 6 days sober. I cried for the first three days.
I want to stay sober and I am taking it one day at a time.
Typically, on Christmas Day I would start drinking early. The stress of cooking, cleaning and facing family was (in my mind) stressful and I could only get thru it by drinking.
I did not have a drink today. I enjoyed my family, had conversations, played games and shockingly opened up to them about my decision to quit drinking. It was greeted with understanding.
This was the most non stressful Christmas ever.
I want to stay sober and I am taking it one day at a time.
Typically, on Christmas Day I would start drinking early. The stress of cooking, cleaning and facing family was (in my mind) stressful and I could only get thru it by drinking.
I did not have a drink today. I enjoyed my family, had conversations, played games and shockingly opened up to them about my decision to quit drinking. It was greeted with understanding.
This was the most non stressful Christmas ever.
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I have been looking for a place online for support and I am hoping this is the place. I know I need to go to meetings, but honestly have not done it yet.
I am reading the book Being Sober and learning a lot about my addiction and what I need to do to make sobriety work for me.
Alcohol made me a loner. I have a husband, a daughter, and a son. Aside from spending time with them and immediate family, I have isolated myself and only hung out with my friend alcohol. At night, when the kids were asleep and hubby still at work, I would drink.
And if we were invited to a party or social event, it was never one drink for me. I drank to get drunk.
I was always resentful that I could not make new friends. I am beginning to understand why and that my addiction and alcoholic mentality was the reason. I am an alcoholic. I know I need the support of an AA group. Why am I so scared to go?
I am reading the book Being Sober and learning a lot about my addiction and what I need to do to make sobriety work for me.
Alcohol made me a loner. I have a husband, a daughter, and a son. Aside from spending time with them and immediate family, I have isolated myself and only hung out with my friend alcohol. At night, when the kids were asleep and hubby still at work, I would drink.
And if we were invited to a party or social event, it was never one drink for me. I drank to get drunk.
I was always resentful that I could not make new friends. I am beginning to understand why and that my addiction and alcoholic mentality was the reason. I am an alcoholic. I know I need the support of an AA group. Why am I so scared to go?
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(((HUGS))) It's hard to try something new. It's scary as all get out! I know...I've been there.
All I can suggest is to find an open meeting and maybe have a trusted friend go with you? If not, if you don't want anyone else to know, then take some deep breaths and just go! That's what I had to do. I never once regretted it, either.
You can do this!
All I can suggest is to find an open meeting and maybe have a trusted friend go with you? If not, if you don't want anyone else to know, then take some deep breaths and just go! That's what I had to do. I never once regretted it, either.
You can do this!
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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I have been looking for a place online for support and I am hoping this is the place. I know I need to go to meetings, but honestly have not done it yet.
I am reading the book Being Sober and learning a lot about my addiction and what I need to do to make sobriety work for me.
Alcohol made me a loner. I have a husband, a daughter, and a son. Aside from spending time with them and immediate family, I have isolated myself and only hung out with my friend alcohol. At night, when the kids were asleep and hubby still at work, I would drink.
And if we were invited to a party or social event, it was never one drink for me. I drank to get drunk.
I was always resentful that I could not make new friends. I am beginning to understand why and that my addiction and alcoholic mentality was the reason. I am an alcoholic. I know I need the support of an AA group. Why am I so scared to go?
I am reading the book Being Sober and learning a lot about my addiction and what I need to do to make sobriety work for me.
Alcohol made me a loner. I have a husband, a daughter, and a son. Aside from spending time with them and immediate family, I have isolated myself and only hung out with my friend alcohol. At night, when the kids were asleep and hubby still at work, I would drink.
And if we were invited to a party or social event, it was never one drink for me. I drank to get drunk.
I was always resentful that I could not make new friends. I am beginning to understand why and that my addiction and alcoholic mentality was the reason. I am an alcoholic. I know I need the support of an AA group. Why am I so scared to go?
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Welcome Suzi 
Going to a meeting is not painful at all, you can just go and just listen, I was scared too, but now I have some lovely sober friends who understand me. I've only been going since October.
Glad to have you with us !
Going to a meeting is not painful at all, you can just go and just listen, I was scared too, but now I have some lovely sober friends who understand me. I've only been going since October.
Glad to have you with us !
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