SoberHappyHour

Every time I put together a week of sobriety, I end up relapsing thinking I'm ok now and then I realize I can't handle my drinking again. Have any of you ever felt like you've hit rock bottom ? That's currently where I'm at. I went to the bar last night and don't remember the end of the night. I'm missing my ID, credit card, and car keys (wasn't driving but had them with me). I just feel like I have absolutely nothing going right now and don't kno where to start or go. Sorry, guess I just felt the need to get this stuff off my chest, but i'm really lost right now.

trachemys

I've been worse. Don't get too down. Stop drinking. Move foreward.

Dee74

Welcome back

I've definitely felt like that SHH.

I think most of us reach a point where we realise it's time to react differently when you have the 'I'm ok now' thoughts.

We're ok in lots of awesome ways, but we;re not ok to drink...not if we want to the be who we want to be.

I think it's a good idea to start working up a plan for what you can do when those thoughts happen again?

D

Gonnachange

Not to minimize the health issues, but make sure you cancel all of your credit/debit cards. ID's in the wrong hands can be a very dangerous situation so if you don't find them quickly I would also strongly suggest you open an account with Experian or any of the other big credit monitoring companies. The big three are also part of a joint program called something like Triple Advantage.

Too many day ones here so I'm not in a position to offer advice, but please stay safe tonight and if it means not going out then do so. Okay, I did just offer some advice.

ScottFromWI

I have been there before, many times. I thought I would be "OK" or that I was cured and would be able to drink again moderately. I tried every moderation plan there was, and even invented some of my own. Every single time it failed though, and sometimes in spectacular fashion. I finally realized that the problem wasn't that I couldn't find the right way to moderate - it was that I hadn't fully accepted that I am an alcoholic. This means accepting that I will never, ever be able to moderate my drinking...so the only solution is to just never pick up the first one.

Rock bottom is really kind of a relative term, because no matter how low you go, you can always go lower - until you die of course ( which does happen ).

What exactly do you do to keep working on your sobriety in between your periods of drinking and abstinence?

SoberHappyHour

I kno I need to stop, drinking isn't crossing my mind right now. I'm just laying in bed thinking about what an idiot I am and feeling like crap. So many negative thoughts crossing my mind and the feeling of why am I even here right now ? What's my purpose if I can't do anything right ?

brynn

Glad you're here SSH!

Yes, I hit bottom a little over two weeks ago.
The first thing I did was stop drinking. It's the only way I could start digging my way out of the mess I had made of my life.
I know the feeling of being lost, but I also know that continuing to drink just reenforces that feeling.
I really hope you decide to put down the bottle for good and reclaim your life.

SoberHappyHour

Really nothing. I just feel good a few days after drinking and then I feel like I have a hold of it. Then, Sunday arrives and I plan to just have a couple and watch the football games with friends and I end up being an all night rockstar.

Soberwolf

Time to break the chains SHH

ScottFromWI

Maybe instead of drinking and watching football you could come here and chat. Or go to a few AA?NA meetings throughout the week. Or read up on some AVRT literature. Simply "not drinking" is not recovery, and it usually doesn't last.

SoberHappyHour

Thanks Scott, think I'm going to use your suggestions. This feeling of depression today is not good at all. I have no desire to do anything right now.

PurpleKnight

For me it had to be like someone telling me I had a nut allergy, would you still have some nuts and put your life at risk if a Dr said you need to stay away from nuts??

Alcohol had to become similar to that in my mind and I had to accept it was just as serious!!

SoberHappyHour

Thanks, that's a good way of looking at it. And really, I pretty much am allergic because every time I drink, I end up doing stupid things.