Sorry all back to da one
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Sorry all back to da one
made day 42 but I'm back to day 1, I don't do well with no structure in my life , I'm bipolar . for the last 1.5 months I've felt odd I took something a dentist gave me for a very reall tooth ache , I made it a point to get a non narcotic drug ( the pain was over the top) anyways I only took it for a few days till the pain went away, oddly , my sleeping patern has went to pot , as has my eating pattern, also my desire to be oblivious is back , as is my suicidal thoughts , . . . I'm getting back on bord in the morning , I appologise to you all
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If I had a penny for all the times I crashed and burned I would have a Porsche.
Perhaps you could introspect on the following:
What have you learned from your relapse?
Can you tweak your plan and add more support?
Is your bipolar condition properly treated?
Kiddy up and get back on the horse, a bump on the road doesn't have to become sinkhole.
Perhaps you could introspect on the following:
What have you learned from your relapse?
Can you tweak your plan and add more support?
Is your bipolar condition properly treated?
Kiddy up and get back on the horse, a bump on the road doesn't have to become sinkhole.
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Thank you for helping yourself to be accountable with telling the truth. This is a huge step for any one of us. Be gentle on you, but be diligent.
It took me way too many years to stay stopped. Stick around here for support
It took me way too many years to stay stopped. Stick around here for support
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I'll add my vote for checking in with your doctor in addition to climbing back on the sober bus. 42 days is about one and a half months, could you have been feeling odd because you weren't drinking?
Be gentle with yourself today. You have made great progress and one slip doesn't negate that.
Be gentle with yourself today. You have made great progress and one slip doesn't negate that.
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Good to see you back, Admiral 
Sorry to hear you have been struggling. I am sure you realize that most likely the BPD is made worse by drugging and drinking and it would probably improve if you stayed clean and sober for a good while. Would also be easier to stabilize you with medication. I don't have diagnosable BPD, but it runs in one lineage of my family (along with schizophrenia) and I definitely had some bipolar-ish symptoms coming and going when I was drinking heavily. Sometimes, some of my bad binges put me in near psychotic states that I still remember well... I was a little scared what would happen if I stopped drinking completely, thinking about my family... maybe it would get worse? Well, surprise surprise, it did not get worse but by now (~11 months sober) ALL those weird symptoms and unstable (often extreme) mental states went away. I probably never felt this stable mentally in my whole life. I have also been evaluated by mental health professionals several times during this year of sobriety, and things are really getting increasingly better. It took a while though.
You probably know well that treating mental illness effectively while someone is drinking and/or using drugs is very difficult. I really suggest that you give a good try to being clean and sober, and go from there! And still agree with the others that getting help from your doctor might be a good idea straight away.
Sorry to hear you have been struggling. I am sure you realize that most likely the BPD is made worse by drugging and drinking and it would probably improve if you stayed clean and sober for a good while. Would also be easier to stabilize you with medication. I don't have diagnosable BPD, but it runs in one lineage of my family (along with schizophrenia) and I definitely had some bipolar-ish symptoms coming and going when I was drinking heavily. Sometimes, some of my bad binges put me in near psychotic states that I still remember well... I was a little scared what would happen if I stopped drinking completely, thinking about my family... maybe it would get worse? Well, surprise surprise, it did not get worse but by now (~11 months sober) ALL those weird symptoms and unstable (often extreme) mental states went away. I probably never felt this stable mentally in my whole life. I have also been evaluated by mental health professionals several times during this year of sobriety, and things are really getting increasingly better. It took a while though. You probably know well that treating mental illness effectively while someone is drinking and/or using drugs is very difficult. I really suggest that you give a good try to being clean and sober, and go from there! And still agree with the others that getting help from your doctor might be a good idea straight away.
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