Day 5! Bring on the weekend!
Day 5! Bring on the weekend!
I honestly don't know the last time I went 5 days without a drink. These 5 days have helped me mentally so much, it's amazing how you can think when you aren't full of drugs!
My reason for wanting to quit this time for real - has changed. Went to another meeting this morning, this one went well (yay!), and is making me examine everything over and over again. Initially I wanted to stop because I got a 4th chance at a great job, and unlike the other 3 times where my attendance sucked due to hangovers I lost the jobs, I am refusing to let that happen again. Now, 5 days in, I'm realizing that things go deeper.
I've had anxiety/panic issues for most of my life. I've been on numerous drugs and seen several therapists. Everything helps a bit, but not enough. Drinking helped a lot on the front end, but made me pay for it harshly while I was hungover.
Things I've learned -
I'm an alcoholic because when I drink I can't stop.
I drink because I've been self medicating for my anxiety, which has not been successfully treated.
So my game plan has changed. It was "Never drink again and do whatever it takes to never drink again" - that still exists, but I'm going deeper. The only reason I want to drink is to treat my anxiety.
So my new game plan - Going back to my Dr. today and made an appointment with an old psychologist I used to see for Monday. I have to finally battle my mental health to truly be healthy.
Self discovery rocks. Have a great weekend!!!!
Donny
My reason for wanting to quit this time for real - has changed. Went to another meeting this morning, this one went well (yay!), and is making me examine everything over and over again. Initially I wanted to stop because I got a 4th chance at a great job, and unlike the other 3 times where my attendance sucked due to hangovers I lost the jobs, I am refusing to let that happen again. Now, 5 days in, I'm realizing that things go deeper.
I've had anxiety/panic issues for most of my life. I've been on numerous drugs and seen several therapists. Everything helps a bit, but not enough. Drinking helped a lot on the front end, but made me pay for it harshly while I was hungover.
Things I've learned -
I'm an alcoholic because when I drink I can't stop.
I drink because I've been self medicating for my anxiety, which has not been successfully treated.
So my game plan has changed. It was "Never drink again and do whatever it takes to never drink again" - that still exists, but I'm going deeper. The only reason I want to drink is to treat my anxiety.
So my new game plan - Going back to my Dr. today and made an appointment with an old psychologist I used to see for Monday. I have to finally battle my mental health to truly be healthy.
Self discovery rocks. Have a great weekend!!!!
Donny
I've been "treated" for anxiety in the past, too. I'd say the best anxiety-fighter I've found is not drinking. It takes a while - like a few months - to have your central nervous system and brain act normally after removing alcohol.
Maybe give it a little time before trying medication, if possible. A baseline is a better place to start, and that won't be reached for at least a couple months. Exercise, a healthy diet, and 7-9 hours of sleep a night do wonders. Especially the exercise part - it's been proven to help with anxiety and depression - and I know it is enough for me now that I've been sober a while.
Maybe give it a little time before trying medication, if possible. A baseline is a better place to start, and that won't be reached for at least a couple months. Exercise, a healthy diet, and 7-9 hours of sleep a night do wonders. Especially the exercise part - it's been proven to help with anxiety and depression - and I know it is enough for me now that I've been sober a while.
I've been "treated" for anxiety in the past, too. I'd say the best anxiety-fighter I've found is not drinking. It takes a while - like a few months - to have your central nervous system and brain act normally after removing alcohol.
Maybe give it a little time before trying medication, if possible. A baseline is a better place to start, and that won't be reached for at least a couple months. Exercise, a healthy diet, and 7-9 hours of sleep a night do wonders. Especially the exercise part - it's been proven to help with anxiety and depression - and I know it is enough for me now that I've been sober a while.
Maybe give it a little time before trying medication, if possible. A baseline is a better place to start, and that won't be reached for at least a couple months. Exercise, a healthy diet, and 7-9 hours of sleep a night do wonders. Especially the exercise part - it's been proven to help with anxiety and depression - and I know it is enough for me now that I've been sober a while.
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