I will never forgot!
I will never forgot!
I will never forgot the last terrible and horrible week I went through. Alcohol has totally taken over my life. I started drinking last Sunday and ended up in the depths of HELL. I would drink all day, all night, every hour just passing out for a few hours of sleep. The anxiety, dread, impending doom were too much to bear. I kept drinking to get rid of these feeling but they came back stronger each time. I would vomit and then try to drink more, vomit and try again. This was my body just rejecting the alcohol. I could not sleep because of the fear of dying and my heart and pulse were all pounding. I truly thought this was the end. I kept this process up until this last Sunday. Drinking continuously for an entire week. My body was so weak and I had turned into a zombie had not brushed my teeth or bathed. I did not care about anything or anyone except the alcohol. I had become a shell of a man with a soul soaked of this poison.
Finally by the will of god finally convinced my self to stop because i would die if i continued. Managed to get to the ER at my local hospital to detox.
This has been my Worst feeling ever and I NEVER WANT TO FORGOT.
Thank god and the divine help I received. I am so scared for my future.
I NEVER WANT TO FORGET. PLEASE SR and my friends here NEVER LET ME FORGOT.
Finally by the will of god finally convinced my self to stop because i would die if i continued. Managed to get to the ER at my local hospital to detox.
This has been my Worst feeling ever and I NEVER WANT TO FORGOT.
Thank god and the divine help I received. I am so scared for my future.
I NEVER WANT TO FORGET. PLEASE SR and my friends here NEVER LET ME FORGOT.
That's just about how I felt my last time drinking. I knew it was over - I could never risk going back to hell. I figured I'd very likely not make it back out. That was almost 7 yrs. ago - and I never had another drop. You can do it too.
Why not write down what the last week was like? I wish I'd kept notes in early recovery.
Glad you are determined, ms.
Why not write down what the last week was like? I wish I'd kept notes in early recovery.
Glad you are determined, ms.
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Body rejecting alcohol. That one really got me emotionally on top of the retching. Really. I gave my everything and she walks away and leaves me to die.
I joined this site in late may to chronicle my tapering, quit on june 11th and have been here ever since. Have a GP appt. today for some lingering gastro issues. Love that title!
I joined this site in late may to chronicle my tapering, quit on june 11th and have been here ever since. Have a GP appt. today for some lingering gastro issues. Love that title!
You dont have to forget start writing all this down keep it and read in times of cravings etc Ms
you can print your top post off and keep that at all times
Glad you got the detox and very glad you are trying again
Well done Ms
you can print your top post off and keep that at all times
Glad you got the detox and very glad you are trying again
Well done Ms
Sounds a lot like my bottom. It was clearly a matter of life or death with me. Thankfully, I had a sponsor in AA to remind me when I started feeling a lot better that my feeling better didn't change the fact that it was life or death. It's hard to remember, or even imagine the blackness alcohol is capable of bringing when we're feeling healthy.
This is always a life or death thing to me, and while I'm not always thinking about it (or even conscious of it any more), not drinking is always my first priority.
This is always a life or death thing to me, and while I'm not always thinking about it (or even conscious of it any more), not drinking is always my first priority.
I haven't had a drink in over four years. It isn't the memory of some horrendous drinking episode that has kept me sober, even though I had an awful one. Bad enough to say, "Never again." Heck, two weeks into my quit, I had forgotten why I had.
What I remembered then, and remember now is my commitment to my recovery, my commitment to never drink, and the sober life I built around me.
What I remembered then, and remember now is my commitment to my recovery, my commitment to never drink, and the sober life I built around me.
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This is so much like what I am going through right now it's scary. I just came off a 4 day bender (drink boatloads of vodka, vomit in the shower, sleep a few hours, repeat the process day and night for days.) I stopped yesterday and went to the ER to get some meds for the detoxification process. I took the rest of the week off work so I don't cause suspicion (I am a highly functional alcoholic, I wait until I get home to get hammered and try to get 8 hours of sleep but I'm sure some people can tell.) I don't ever want to feel the way I did yesterday again and I hope you succeed in your quitting. I'd like to talk more because our situations sound so similar so keep me updated.
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