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Got through a trigger happy day
Mum in care home attacking me about a list of things I haven't done "all you do is a bit of shopping" (ahem, a bit more than that really). Didn't drink.
Then water damaged shed has destroyed a ton of sentimental papers and objects, and I've filled a skip with sooo many things my wife and I stored (hoarded) as useful for the future. Didn't drink
Then an evening wedding reception (free bar). All my anxieties racing.
Ive been diagnosed before with body dismophic disorder: typical male , obsessive exercise coupled with bulimia. Ive fought that since i was a fat child , obviously alcohol was a another bandage over the top when you get older with less energy and children there isn't the freedom to exhaust all the anxieties at the gym or on a long run...
So tight wedding trousers, hot jacket...
But I drove so no drinking. Felt horrifically awkward. Good spirit in the room and danced like a loon eventually.
Didn't drink
I feel like I have to unravel 25 years of drinking , strip things back, to understand who I am (or was?)
And then rebuild rebuild rebuild
Anyway, that's me . thank you for listening
Mum in care home attacking me about a list of things I haven't done "all you do is a bit of shopping" (ahem, a bit more than that really). Didn't drink.
Then water damaged shed has destroyed a ton of sentimental papers and objects, and I've filled a skip with sooo many things my wife and I stored (hoarded) as useful for the future. Didn't drink
Then an evening wedding reception (free bar). All my anxieties racing.
Ive been diagnosed before with body dismophic disorder: typical male , obsessive exercise coupled with bulimia. Ive fought that since i was a fat child , obviously alcohol was a another bandage over the top when you get older with less energy and children there isn't the freedom to exhaust all the anxieties at the gym or on a long run...
So tight wedding trousers, hot jacket...
But I drove so no drinking. Felt horrifically awkward. Good spirit in the room and danced like a loon eventually.
Didn't drink
I feel like I have to unravel 25 years of drinking , strip things back, to understand who I am (or was?)
And then rebuild rebuild rebuild
Anyway, that's me . thank you for listening
Sounds like you got a lot going on there jim,
We can only do in one day what we can do , it's sunday morning and a new day today .
it looks nice if a little cold out there ,
bestwishes, m
We can only do in one day what we can do , it's sunday morning and a new day today .
it looks nice if a little cold out there ,
bestwishes, m
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Nice work today I'd say. Really nice work.
Yes, I think that's ultimately what you do have to do. It's what I had to do. I drank for about 3 years, but prior to that happening, I lived my life in fear and stifled my emotions. It's a daunting task, but it doesn't happen in a day or a week. You will be able to manage getting through the unraveling and rebuilding as long as you stay sober.
P. S. Your avatar is the greatest!!
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