Nic233

Well I never made it through Friday night sober. Ended up sitting outside the bottle shop for half an hour debating whether to go in.. Well of course I did. I drank a bottle of wine last night and knew I'd regret it instantly. I'm not sure why I would do this to myself so soon..I was kidding myself that it's bit that bad as I would normally drink 2 bottles + on a weekend but i feel so ashamed.. Sorry for the rant..

Dee74

Remember we're here for support Nic. Any time.
We even have a mobile app now.

Maybe you need a better plan for the rest of the weekend?

D

Hevyn

No need to feel ashamed - you're among friends Nic. Most of us have done the same thing. Sometimes we need further convincing that there's nothing in that bottle for us. Sounds like you learned something and are ready to move on. We're with you.

Anna

Nic, you can learn from this experience and avoid it happening again.

We are here for you.

Soberwolf

You can dfo this Nic

like D said theres a mobile app now and we are all here 24/7 for support

glad your here posting Nic

Steve123123

Honestly, Nic, the fact that you posted this tonight makes me confident that you will grow from last night's experience. As others have said, so many of us (including me, my goodness) have gone down extremely similar paths. I wish you the best, my friend.

Mark1014

Lots of great responses here. I can't add much as far as advice goes....but I can sure encourage you to hang in there Nic!

Frixion

Don't apologize for the rant. We are all here to support you

Nic233

Thankyou all so so much. I just called up my Mum and told her about my drinking.. I've been scared to do this but she was so supportive.. I feel blessed to have found this forum.. I will try again from today.. X

Nic233

I just bought the App... :-)

Ruby2

Well done Nic! Good for coming back here. I've had that war with self. Pacing back and forth in front of the liquor store/aisle in the store. Then taking the bottle even though I promised myself I would drink.

Maybe next time if you find yourself tempted use the app and reach out. Or call your mum? You don't have to tell her why you are calling but the distraction of calling may derail your urge.

Keep coming back.

matilda123

Well done, Nic! I've very early in, but I can attest that this community is here for support. Twice (including just tonight!) I felt very close to drinking. Posting and getting support and encouragement really helped me avoid that temptation. Maybe part of your plan can be that if you feel the urge again, you'll post on here first?

PS: Good for you for telling your mom. That was very brave.

Briar

You're back, that's what's important. Use this as a learning experience. What triggered you? How can you handle it next time? I agree with those who encouraged you to come on here when you're tempted. It's saved me several times.

Willdoit

I did the same Wednesday, well back on day 3 I said I would have 2 beers ended up with 14 I guess, onwards and upwards...

439trish

you came back, that is great, and takes courage, don't feel alone-many of us have been through this also, myself for sure

just don't give up, that is where I am

YOU CAN DO THIS.

mecanix

It's a new day today , saturday .

I hope you make it a green tick on the calendar , one red cross in 6 days is unfortunate but i have known people recover from worse .. i hope you have only one red cross but in 7 days tomorrow ..

I used to make sure i'd done my shopping in the week and that the car had fuel , so i could go to work friday without any cash in my pocket and no bank cards . If i had no means to buy drink i couldn't sit in the parking lot pondering the question .

Bestwishes, m

JanieJ

You did the right thing, you came back and posted.

We' ve all been there. I was pacing the booze aisle last week myself.

You 'll get there.

trachemys

I fell off the wagon so many times in the last year that I can't count them. Keep trying. "Progress, not Perfection" is the process. Keep trying. Don't quit. We've got your back.

Hevyn

Hoping you're doing good today Nic.

Marcher13

Nic in the early days of recovery I would come straight to SR when I felt a bad craving. Sometimes I posted about it other times I read around but every time it helped.

An important thing is to change things. Sitting outside the bottle shop for half an hour would make me give in, change it up by going for a walk or run (depending on your fitness), or get absorbed in doing something you enjoy or simply come here and post.