Frixion

I never knew that AV could really seep in like that. I was tired, because I was keeping my self busy ALL day to make healthier habits to replace drinking with. I took a nap and first thing I tell my self as I woke up - "I'm not an alcoholic - that's not me. I'm depressed. I drink because I'm depressed not because I'm addicted" And I could feel that follow up thought "I just need to tackle the depression, I can still drink one in a while". For a split second I even thought I shouldn't go to my AA meeting.

Haha, I'm glad I recognized what my mind was doing before I grabbed one of the beers in my fridge. I am absolutely, no questions asked an alcoholic. I have nearly lost my life MULTIPLE times because of liquor, and to this day that AV still tells me that alcohol is not a problem.

I just wanted to thank all of you for convincing me to go to an AA meeting, and talking with me on here. Tonight, just on day 3 I desperately need all the support. Well my AA meeting starts in an hour so I should get going. Talk to you all later, and thanks again... without you I wouldn't have known that was the addiction talking

Much love.

Rina

That's awesome! Look how far u have come in just 3 days!!

Soberwolf

Well done Frixion

Exellent job recognising AV

Hope your meeting goes really well you have loads of support here 24/7

your doing fantastic well done again on day 3

great post Frixion

SoberBike

Good Luck Frixion! Just don't make the mistake that I did with the thinking that it's just my depression. I took SSRIs and drank very heavy for three years, thought being that I could still drink and treat my mental illness. It gets easier with time - nice to have you with us - keep using SR as a sobriety tool!!

Dee74

Great stuff Frixion - can you get rid of the beers in the fridge?

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Soberwolf

Yes pour those beers away asap Frixion

SoberLeigh

Good job shutting down that AV, Frixion. Hope your meeting goes well.

WIP17

Nice job recognizing that tricky AV voice and not listening to it!!

LBrain

well done Frixion -
post often

mistory5

I must ask this: why do you have beer in the fridge? Honestly my jaw dropped when I read that part. I'm amazed that you can keep from drinking it. I'm not saying this to knock you or anything else. I just know there is no way I could deal with that kind of temptation. I'm just saying.

Arbor

Yeah was gonna say it. Why all the beer in the fridge Frixion?

phoebe64

I am guessing her boyfriend drinks the beers.

I am so impressed with how focused you are on trying to learn and work on your sobriety, Frixion. I have been reading your threads.

Frixion

Yupp =P The beers are my boyfriends. I don't find them overly tempting than any other liquor to be honest. Like of course any alcohol is something I crave, but I literally live on the same block as 7-10 different bars/pubs (not including all the restaurants that serve booze & the 5 local liquor stores all within a 2 minute walk). My area is kind of the alcohol district of some sorts. All my friends would come over to go bar hopping and our main "goal" was to start at one part of the street and make it through all the bars till we made our rounds back to the original bar we started - we never succeeded. So basically all I mean is that liquor is just an elevator ride away so I need to deal with the fact that it is easily accessible during my recovery.

OH and I am very happy I went to the meeting today! More people around my age, they invited me to some other groups, and I got my first chip! It's only for 24 hours, but for me it represents a ton! This chip represents myself reclaiming my life, and making a happier and totally sober future! I feel like I was able to pay closer attention to what people were saying at this meeting. Each and every person that spoke I had really learnt lessons from - needless to say I was extremely grateful to be there to listen.

matilda123

Way to flex those sober muscles, Frixion!

It is very inspiring!

Hope4Life

Here is the song for your post! Love the studio version but the live version is great as well....



Congratulations on recognizing that sneaky jerk! Keep it up!

Frixion

Haha perfect^

BBQBOY

Great job Frixion going to AA. It has helped me, also to understand my AV I also looked into AVRT( addictive voice recognition technique). We will always have that nasty voice in our head, and AVRT has helped me identify and deal with my AV. Just another tool to combat this beast, we need all we can get. Best wishes for a healthy recovery.