I cant stop
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: queensland
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I cant stop
Finally went to meeting and still picked up and blew 240 dollars on xmas im insane dumb crazy . Hurting so much I even forgot my daughters prep orientation day wanna curl up an die !!!!
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Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: Midwest
Posts: 9,029
Well, you're not dumb or crazy or insane. I'm sure you are hurting. Was it an AA meeting? You wouldn't be the first to get drunk afterwards and won't be the last. I would buy wine on my way home sometimes. When I really felt like I couldn't quit I surrendered and finally asked for help instead of going through the motions. For me it was inpatient rehab. I needed a complete disconnect from routine to break it. Once that happened I could go to meetings and help and be helped.
Get some rest and rework your plan.
Get some rest and rework your plan.
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Join Date: May 2014
Location: liverpool, england
Posts: 1,708
if people want to drink then there is nothing out there in the whole world that will shake them from not drinking
there has to be a desire not to drink for anything to be able to start to work
in the begging i had to quit for an hour at a time until the shops were shut then i could breathe easy as i got through another day without picking up a drink i went to aa meetings day and night and inbetween meetings is where i had to carry on the fight to not pick up the first drink
but i was full of desperation and gave it my all to not pick up that first drink, i did what people told me to do in the aa meetings rather than just go to one and not listen and then go out and buy a drink
its takes hard effort on my part and a willingness
i know i wanted something to easy to make me a non drinker that i didnt have to work at
i didnt know that i had to put in the much needed effort
there has to be a desire not to drink for anything to be able to start to work
in the begging i had to quit for an hour at a time until the shops were shut then i could breathe easy as i got through another day without picking up a drink i went to aa meetings day and night and inbetween meetings is where i had to carry on the fight to not pick up the first drink
but i was full of desperation and gave it my all to not pick up that first drink, i did what people told me to do in the aa meetings rather than just go to one and not listen and then go out and buy a drink
its takes hard effort on my part and a willingness
i know i wanted something to easy to make me a non drinker that i didnt have to work at
i didnt know that i had to put in the much needed effort
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Gatineau, QC, CA
Posts: 5,100
If like me, you have now crossed the line. By this I mean that you now realize that your drinking is out of control.
This means that every time you will drink from this point on will only bring you guilt, shame, anxiety, discouragement, depression.
Sorry to say, but the party is permanently broken. Only until you accept that fact, and start the grieving process of loosing your imaginary "best friend" you will struggle.
Good luck!
This means that every time you will drink from this point on will only bring you guilt, shame, anxiety, discouragement, depression.
Sorry to say, but the party is permanently broken. Only until you accept that fact, and start the grieving process of loosing your imaginary "best friend" you will struggle.
Good luck!
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