driftedsoul

I stopped for three straight months last year. It could be called the best three months of my life. Made some great changes in my life in that time. Yet, I am back. Here I am again.I had to fire someone for drinking on the job the other day. (Here comes some rationalization).

"I dont drink while I am at work..."

"I am not like that."

"That is someone with a problem..."

This person is a recovering heroin addict, 5 years sober (of that). And I pray it stays that way. A great person. But, man can he drink.

What is so different from me? Not much. I just dont drink at work. But I thoughtlessly, and shamelessly (even though there is a lot of shame involved that I dont realize until it is too late) stop by the store on my way home from work, pick up a 12er, kill it on my couch before passing out, throw up all of the good food I cooked for myself the night before in the morning. And repeat.

This isnt the life I was meant to live. So changes need to happen. There are soo many great people here who have faced the same challenge. I look up to you all so much. Trying to be strong and try again.

JanieJ

Hi, Driftedsoul, good to meet you

Yeah, we're all in this big boat together, grab an oar.

Dee74

Don't try. Be

Think of 5 ideas how you're gonna not pick up that next 12 pack...and you're off and running...

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Pipping

Sounds a lot like my evenings except my poison was wine. You can do this! Keep reading and posting xx

BernieE

What did you do differently when you had the three months? And what led to the decision to drink again? You need a new plan. Did you go to meetings, take a different route home, start exercising, etc? You can do it again!

Soberwolf

Welcome bk

driftedsoul

Thanks all! Here goes night one hopefully I'll find some sleep. Going to get back into the gym tomorrow too. That helped a lot last time. Just need to find better things to fill my time with