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My first post
9 years of living in a bottle have to come to a stop. Another fight with my child ended in tears - tears that should not have been shed, anger for no reason. I'm losing my battle against the bottle, my family, and my job. Each day it's the same, a vow to myself never to drink again, to be a better mother and wife, only to succumb to the bottle at the end of the day... I am joining this chat room as I now need help - I am finally admitting that I cannot stop this abuse on my own!
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I was the same way for many years - every morning I'd swear off it. I'd berate myself in the mirror and in the car on my way to work. Dammit man, get your **** together!
Every evening I'd stop on my way home and get a bottle. The few evenings I didn't stop I'd be pacing my house like a caged animal, irritable, anxious, and a battle raging in my head.
You can woop this Hopeful2013! I did. It took me some time, but I beat it. You can, too.
Welcome to the fight of your life.
Every evening I'd stop on my way home and get a bottle. The few evenings I didn't stop I'd be pacing my house like a caged animal, irritable, anxious, and a battle raging in my head.
You can woop this Hopeful2013! I did. It took me some time, but I beat it. You can, too.
Welcome to the fight of your life.
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Good job on your first post. I'm on, yet another, day one but I've got a better plan and like you just did, I reached out for help. The trick is using that help. I got some work done today and tossed the empty, hidden bottles (which I broke down and told my husband about yesterday).
I will not drink today. I will wake up tomorrow morning and make that same declaration.
I will not drink today. I will wake up tomorrow morning and make that same declaration.
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Admitting that you cannot stop on your own is a HUGE step. It took me a long time to admit that to myself and of course anyone else. At first, I felt weak and embarrassed, but after seeking out help and getting sober, I have been amazed out how many people in my life have told me how proud they are of me and how it took so much courage to do what I did. Just know that you can turn your life around and there are so many people out there that want to help you, it is just a matter of asking for that help! 
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Thank you so much to everyone who have posted their support. I can tell that this site is going to make a tremendous difference to my recovery. Tonight I will keep this site open, keep reading and posting, and seriously hope that tomorrow I can bring a happy update to you and not disappear too embarrassed that I failed to make even my first night alcohol and fight free! Thank you again.
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Originally Posted by Nonsensical 
I was the same way for many years - every morning I'd swear off it. I'd berate myself in the mirror and in the car on my way to work. Dammit man, get your **** together!
Every evening I'd stop on my way home and get a bottle. The few evenings I didn't stop I'd be pacing my house like a caged animal, irritable, anxious, and a battle raging in my head.
You can woop this Hopeful2013! I did. It took me some time, but I beat it. You can, too.
Welcome to the fight of your life.
Every evening I'd stop on my way home and get a bottle. The few evenings I didn't stop I'd be pacing my house like a caged animal, irritable, anxious, and a battle raging in my head.
You can woop this Hopeful2013! I did. It took me some time, but I beat it. You can, too.
Welcome to the fight of your life.
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welcome to the forum hopefull2013,
acknowledging it and accepting it are the keys to beginning a life without drinking.
Know that you will never be able to drink again. Accept it as a fact. It is so much easier to plan going forward without having any doubts about it. It is never an option. Not in a week a month or a year. Even after ten years if I start drinking again I know where I'll end up. So I accepted that it is forever. It is so much easier knowing that. And whichever path you choose to remain sober, unless you understand that, you might as well be playing roulette.
Welcome.
acknowledging it and accepting it are the keys to beginning a life without drinking.
Know that you will never be able to drink again. Accept it as a fact. It is so much easier to plan going forward without having any doubts about it. It is never an option. Not in a week a month or a year. Even after ten years if I start drinking again I know where I'll end up. So I accepted that it is forever. It is so much easier knowing that. And whichever path you choose to remain sober, unless you understand that, you might as well be playing roulette.
Welcome.
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Originally Posted by Hopeful2013
9 years of living in a bottle have to come to a stop. Another fight with my child ended in tears - tears that should not have been shed, anger for no reason. I'm losing my battle against the bottle, my family, and my job. Each day it's the same, a vow to myself never to drink again, to be a better mother and wife, only to succumb to the bottle at the end of the day... I am joining this chat room as I now need help - I am finally admitting that I cannot stop this abuse on my own!
This is the SR 24 hour thread - many of us commit daily to another 24hours, one day at a time of sobriety!!!
Great way to make a lot of new friends fast!!
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...part-27-a.html
Keep coming back, make a plan of ACTION!
You never have to drink again
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Originally Posted by Hopeful2013
I will win the battle.
I found having a plan to be very helpful. You will feel like drinking again. Plan now for that moment. What will you do when you feel like drinking?
Waiting until the urge was upon me to find something to do was reactive. Knowing in advance what I was going to do made me proactive. Having the initiative in this battle tipped the scales in my favor.
We all have a point of discouragement. It is what you do when you hit that point that makes the difference between mastery and slavery.
You can do this.
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Hopeful,
As the son of someone that passed away before her time due to alcoholic cirrhosis I will say that this is an amazing first step.
I often wonder what could have happened if my mother were ever to admit her problem earlier on in her alcohol abuse.
I am overwhelmed with hope for you and your children. You can absolutely be the mother they deserve and the one you deserve to be for yourself.
You are a beautiful person and you can make this happen. Bless you for starting down the path of healing and reclamation.
As the son of someone that passed away before her time due to alcoholic cirrhosis I will say that this is an amazing first step.
I often wonder what could have happened if my mother were ever to admit her problem earlier on in her alcohol abuse.
I am overwhelmed with hope for you and your children. You can absolutely be the mother they deserve and the one you deserve to be for yourself.
You are a beautiful person and you can make this happen. Bless you for starting down the path of healing and reclamation.
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