Back to day 1
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Posts: 73
Back to day 1
Well, I'm at day one again.
After I posted how I had a good day yesterday, I drank. Much regret this morning.
I think it's time to upgrade my plan. It's time to get a sponsor and start working the steps. Just going to meetings isn't enough. I've been going through the motions instead of working it.
I really do want to be sober. Every fiber of my being wants it.
Time to get real.
After I posted how I had a good day yesterday, I drank. Much regret this morning.
I think it's time to upgrade my plan. It's time to get a sponsor and start working the steps. Just going to meetings isn't enough. I've been going through the motions instead of working it.
I really do want to be sober. Every fiber of my being wants it.
Time to get real.
Member
Join Date: May 2014
Location: liverpool, england
Posts: 1,708
i have to agree as much as i put meetings above all else, the meetings will be useless if you dont have that willingness to at least not pick up that first drink.
i was beaten when i came into aa so i was ready, i had it easy compared to others who still had yet to be convinced and needed to keep on trying to drink.
i had to come to believe that drink and me just do not mix well at all, i had to look at everything drink has cost me, and not make excuses for why i drank
my first mission was to do 90 meetings in 90 days and for me it got me out of my empty flat were i would otheriwise be alone with no one else to talk to so if nothing else those early meetings got me active
the rest just washed over me as i learned more and more in the fellowship, hence i always put meetings ahead of everything else as to me they saved my life
i dare say had i wife and kids to go home to and a family and job still in tact things would of been different for me, hence people tell me i had it easy as i had nothing
daft as it sounds its true as i did have it easy when it came down to accepting
i was beaten when i came into aa so i was ready, i had it easy compared to others who still had yet to be convinced and needed to keep on trying to drink.
i had to come to believe that drink and me just do not mix well at all, i had to look at everything drink has cost me, and not make excuses for why i drank
my first mission was to do 90 meetings in 90 days and for me it got me out of my empty flat were i would otheriwise be alone with no one else to talk to so if nothing else those early meetings got me active
the rest just washed over me as i learned more and more in the fellowship, hence i always put meetings ahead of everything else as to me they saved my life
i dare say had i wife and kids to go home to and a family and job still in tact things would of been different for me, hence people tell me i had it easy as i had nothing
daft as it sounds its true as i did have it easy when it came down to accepting
Trudgin
Join Date: Jul 2014
Posts: 6,348
Originally Posted by desypete 
i have to agree as much as i put meetings above all else, the meetings will be useless if you dont have that willingness to at least not pick up that first drink.
i was beaten when i came into aa so i was ready, i had it easy compared to others who still had yet to be convinced and needed to keep on trying to drink.
i had to come to believe that drink and me just do not mix well at all, i had to look at everything drink has cost me, and not make excuses for why i drank
my first mission was to do 90 meetings in 90 days and for me it got me out of my empty flat were i would otheriwise be alone with no one else to talk to so if nothing else those early meetings got me active
the rest just washed over me as i learned more and more in the fellowship, hence i always put meetings ahead of everything else as to me they saved my life
i dare say had i wife and kids to go home to and a family and job still in tact things would of been different for me, hence people tell me i had it easy as i had nothing
daft as it sounds its true as i did have it easy when it came down to accepting
i was beaten when i came into aa so i was ready, i had it easy compared to others who still had yet to be convinced and needed to keep on trying to drink.
i had to come to believe that drink and me just do not mix well at all, i had to look at everything drink has cost me, and not make excuses for why i drank
my first mission was to do 90 meetings in 90 days and for me it got me out of my empty flat were i would otheriwise be alone with no one else to talk to so if nothing else those early meetings got me active
the rest just washed over me as i learned more and more in the fellowship, hence i always put meetings ahead of everything else as to me they saved my life
i dare say had i wife and kids to go home to and a family and job still in tact things would of been different for me, hence people tell me i had it easy as i had nothing
daft as it sounds its true as i did have it easy when it came down to accepting
In my case loved ones just being present makes me accountable. They do not deserve to hurt by me any longer - never.
FlyN
EndGame
Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: New York, NY
Posts: 4,677
Originally Posted by ThatHombre
Well, I'm at day one again.
After I posted how I had a good day yesterday, I drank. Much regret this morning.
I think it's time to upgrade my plan. It's time to get a sponsor and start working the steps. Just going to meetings isn't enough. I've been going through the motions instead of working it.
I really do want to be sober. Every fiber of my being wants it.
Time to get real.
After I posted how I had a good day yesterday, I drank. Much regret this morning.
I think it's time to upgrade my plan. It's time to get a sponsor and start working the steps. Just going to meetings isn't enough. I've been going through the motions instead of working it.
I really do want to be sober. Every fiber of my being wants it.
Time to get real.
The very fact of a relapse is unremarkable, but what brings us there is often revealing. What changed in the short time following your OP?
Guest
Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: Melbourne, Australia
Posts: 1,476
Good to hear Hombre
I sat in meetings for 2 years back in 2008 -2010
Too scared to drink again but too scared to do anything about the steps too.
In hindsight I wish I had done something about them
I'd probably be 6 years sober if I had.
For me, they have been a lot easier than just white knuckling it.
Go forth and enjoy.
I sat in meetings for 2 years back in 2008 -2010
Too scared to drink again but too scared to do anything about the steps too.
In hindsight I wish I had done something about them
I'd probably be 6 years sober if I had.
For me, they have been a lot easier than just white knuckling it.
Go forth and enjoy.
A work in progress
Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: South Jersey
Posts: 16,633
Originally Posted by AdmimalBlueEyes
"The first step at mastering something is sucking at it "
jake , from adventure time
jake , from adventure time
Hombre, have you read the Big Book? In the chapter "More About Alcoholism" you will read about "Jim," the dude who thought he'd be OK putting whisky in a glass of milk. Just how quick it can happen, and for the most insane reasons.
Glad you're ready to buckle down.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: PA
Posts: 12,000
Originally Posted by desypete
i have to agree as much as i put meetings above all else, the meetings will be useless if you dont have that willingness to at least not pick up that first drink.
daft as it sounds its true as i did have it easy when it came down to accepting
daft as it sounds its true as i did have it easy when it came down to accepting
Two things stand out from above post/quote.
1. Not picking up that first drink
2. Acceptance
Not necessarily in that order.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2013
Posts: 151
Whenever I get to complacent with my sobriety ( not doing anything for keep up) and I get to comfortably finacially , I relapse , ten times out of ten,this time I'm going to meetings , reading and being honest with everyone
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