MissOverIt

I'm so sorry kids, I did everything and am now slipping. The holidays really **** with me. My son is gone with his ****** dad. Now I have to go to my mom's tomorrow. Bleach.

Dee74

Hi MissOverIt,
I'm sorry - I know it must be upsetting - but drinking is not going to help - not one bit.

Don't buy any booze - and if you have - dump it. Now.

Stick with us here - there's support right across the holiday

If your mom's is 'blech' do you *have* to go?

D

MissOverIt

Good point, maybe I shouldn't go.

Dee74

A lot of other SR members have had great Thanksgiving volunteering at shelters and things like that - dunno if that's your thing but it would be a nice and meaningful way to pass at least some of the day

Then there's a lot to be said for just enjoying the space and peace of home too

D

LadyinBC

You don't have to do anything you don't want to do. In the beginning of my sobriety I just treated the holidays just like any other day and tried to stop worrying about them.

Don't give in to your AV, you will just feel worse. Tell your AV to take a hike.

Jsbodhi

Oh don't do it! I so almost drank today, was literally doing 15 min by 15 at one point. AA wasn't the best. But I just got takeout and came here, now I'm good, going to go to bed shortly, thankfully made it through the day, and even though it was a bad day I feel like a million bucks because I didn't drink.
People have been saying to me, play the tape of where the drinking will lead, do that!
Also, none wants a day 1 again! Don't have a day one again.
Sorry, I started rambling about myself in this post. My point was, if I can make it through the day, so can you <3

MissOverIt

I feel pretty alone D. I've never reached out like this.

Jsbodhi

I'm the same, I'm a hider. I would binge drink alone in my house. I still haven't admitted to many people I'm an alcoholic, but I am doing it a bit, on here mostly and in AA, and to my friend in prison who is there as a direct result of drinking and drugs. Took me a while to even admit it to myself. This week actually :/
I feel better with the support though, I think you will too.

Dee74

You have people all over the world in your corner - you're not alone

Maybe it would be best to get out of the house tomorrow tho, then.

Do something you want to do - something life affirming and positive?

MissOverIt

Thank you. I just really hate everthing that my fiancé, family, and life has to push in face there.

neferkamichael

MissOverIt, we are all rootin or ya.

MissOverIt

I've never heard that before Thank you.

Inchworm

You're not alone, Miss. We care and are here for you.

MissOverIt

Ok, dumped it and I have no more booze or friends. This is how it goes.

resolute50

Never alone on SR.
We're all team members of this exclusive... Well...not so exclusive club.

Jsbodhi

Totally not alone. I felt like the biggest piece of sh$t in the world last week, seriously. Everyday is getting better.
Even if you have to lose some people, you'll gain others. Life is funny like that

Chrysalides

You are not alone, we are here. Keep talking. I don't have friends or family tomoorow either, just my husband. Lets keep each other company.

Dee74

LOL I'm glad the booze is gone but the friends bit? nah.

If recovery meant living a lonely monastic life with no friends no one would stay sober.

Give yourself a little time to make a new life and find new friends

I thought sobriety was going to be an ending but it was a beginning, truly

D

colagirl

Hey, I'm with you too (and I also live in Portland). I hate Thanksgiving so I'm looking forward to just getting through it. You can do it!

Chrysalides

I am just across the river from you both (Camas).