Seeking help...for the better
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Seeking help...for the better
Ok we'll I don't really know where to start, I got up this morning for work and immediately called my Co worker to tell Him I was crook. I wanted a beer so bad but sadly I am Sitting at work now as he couldn't make it, so I've decided to seek some Help before I lose everything in my life that I love. I'm 23 at the moment, have 3 children and a partner whom
I adore, the problem Is that I cannot, for 1 minute, not have a beer in my hand if I am not at work. I wake up at 4am on my days off and it starts, I finish work and it starts. And I'm not talking little amounts of beer either, I'm going thru around 18-24 on a work night! If I *feel* as if I don't have enough beer in the fridge, I go nuts, and it's wrong. My kids and partner suffer immensely from it. It's ruining my relationship, I lost then at the start of the year because of it and somehow were back together. I was in my car after a heavy night on my way to put it into a tree and got done by the police for DUI (0.278). Lost my licence for 3.5 years but the alcohol hasn't stopped. I guess it's from my childhood and it's how I am dealing with things. My mom and dad split up when I was 12, my dad stole me and my 2 brothers, told my mom she was never going to see us again and I guess she moved onto a new man. Even thinking of this woman and child bashing **** makes me want to throw my phone so hard at the ground right now. He out me through glass tables, knocked me out (for no reason), strangled my mother to the point she was passed out, luckily for her sake I was home at the time and managed to rip him off of her, then he came at me. This pig, even had the balls to physically abuse my partner, he push my mother down stairs, broke her arm ect. My mother has left him, but in consequence she's out of state, and I never get to see her anymore. But she had to, he said he was going to slit her throat. I suppose I could just be dealing with all this in the latest years of my life. I'm sorry if this is abit of a rant but I need to get this off my chest, I'm sick of feeling anxious and always on edge, I'm sick of always being drunk, I'm just after some support even if I'm going about it the wrong way before I do get the chance to put that car into a tree. So this is my day 1. I'm going to try and throw my beers out, even though if I don't drink I get the shakes, even at work I just shake if I don't have a beer. It's horrible. I have never spoken about this to anyone, my partner and mother are the only ones, I did see a councillor when I got done dui but I did that just so I didn't go to jail, and it was only 1 session. Thanks for taking the time to read (sorry for the huge paragraph I don't know how to make spaces on a iPhone)
I adore, the problem Is that I cannot, for 1 minute, not have a beer in my hand if I am not at work. I wake up at 4am on my days off and it starts, I finish work and it starts. And I'm not talking little amounts of beer either, I'm going thru around 18-24 on a work night! If I *feel* as if I don't have enough beer in the fridge, I go nuts, and it's wrong. My kids and partner suffer immensely from it. It's ruining my relationship, I lost then at the start of the year because of it and somehow were back together. I was in my car after a heavy night on my way to put it into a tree and got done by the police for DUI (0.278). Lost my licence for 3.5 years but the alcohol hasn't stopped. I guess it's from my childhood and it's how I am dealing with things. My mom and dad split up when I was 12, my dad stole me and my 2 brothers, told my mom she was never going to see us again and I guess she moved onto a new man. Even thinking of this woman and child bashing **** makes me want to throw my phone so hard at the ground right now. He out me through glass tables, knocked me out (for no reason), strangled my mother to the point she was passed out, luckily for her sake I was home at the time and managed to rip him off of her, then he came at me. This pig, even had the balls to physically abuse my partner, he push my mother down stairs, broke her arm ect. My mother has left him, but in consequence she's out of state, and I never get to see her anymore. But she had to, he said he was going to slit her throat. I suppose I could just be dealing with all this in the latest years of my life. I'm sorry if this is abit of a rant but I need to get this off my chest, I'm sick of feeling anxious and always on edge, I'm sick of always being drunk, I'm just after some support even if I'm going about it the wrong way before I do get the chance to put that car into a tree. So this is my day 1. I'm going to try and throw my beers out, even though if I don't drink I get the shakes, even at work I just shake if I don't have a beer. It's horrible. I have never spoken about this to anyone, my partner and mother are the only ones, I did see a councillor when I got done dui but I did that just so I didn't go to jail, and it was only 1 session. Thanks for taking the time to read (sorry for the huge paragraph I don't know how to make spaces on a iPhone)
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I'm so sorry for what you have gone through and what you are going through now. Please see a Dr as soon as physically possible (go to the emergency room if you need to) and get yourself referred to an alcohol specialist/team. I'm in NT and it's free here, you would probably only have to pay for prescriptions. You have done the right thing coming here... Be prepared because you are about to be deluged with messages of support and advice. My heart goes out to you. Stay and post, I'm going to be here all morning. I hear you, and other wonderful people here do too. Stay on here for now and wait for the messages... you can turn this around, I know it.
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Have to reiterate here: Get medical assistance and advice AS SOON AS POSSIBLE... If there is any possible way you can leave work and get onto it now, do it, it's your number one priority right now. Feel free to message me at any time if you want to talk.
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Welcome, Nathan! Wow, you have a lot going on. I think it's admirable that you are trying to get better for the sake of yourself and your young family. It can be overwhelming to try to "fix" yourself all at once, so I think it's smart that you're focusing on Day 1 of just not drinking. We are definitely here to support you. Take good care. (((hugs)))
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Thanks for the support guys and girls. It really made my day easier I think letting it all out (even if I did tear up) but I just couldn't keep it bottled inside. Time for change!
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Hi Nathan and welcome to SR, I'm another Aussie too.
Have you ever talked to a doctor about this? What about stopping in to a medical centre on the way home from work and telling a doctor about the shakes? S/he might be able to help you out.
Have you ever talked to a doctor about this? What about stopping in to a medical centre on the way home from work and telling a doctor about the shakes? S/he might be able to help you out.
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Welcome to SR, Nathan.
Glad you found the site and decided to participate.
There's nothing we can do about the past. But we can sure change the future.
Sounds like you're ready to take a different path. A path that will help lead to a better life,not one filled with disappointments and regrets.
Things can change,it's hard,but you can do it.
Note,be careful just quitting cold turkey. I don't know if you have ever tried quitting before but the detox can be nasty and even deadly.
Glad you found the site and decided to participate.
There's nothing we can do about the past. But we can sure change the future.
Sounds like you're ready to take a different path. A path that will help lead to a better life,not one filled with disappointments and regrets.
Things can change,it's hard,but you can do it.
Note,be careful just quitting cold turkey. I don't know if you have ever tried quitting before but the detox can be nasty and even deadly.
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Originally Posted by Marcher13 
Hi Nathan and welcome to SR, I'm another Aussie too.
Have you ever talked to a doctor about this? What about stopping in to a medical centre on the way home from work and telling a doctor about the shakes? S/he might be able to help you out.
Have you ever talked to a doctor about this? What about stopping in to a medical centre on the way home from work and telling a doctor about the shakes? S/he might be able to help you out.
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Nathan it can be lethally dangerous to go cold turkey. A doctor will be sympathetic but professional, s/he can ensure your safety and give you good advice. They probably bulk bill so all you have to pay for is a prescription (maybe). Be honest like you were here, you could even hand them your iphone and they could read your post.
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Originally Posted by Nathan91
I haven't spoken to a doctor yet sadly, I plan to though because the shakes do get pretty intense at times. So I shouldn't cold turkey it?
Your situation though is a bit extreme. You are still a very young guy with your whole life ahead of you but you have a lot or responsibility towards your family, some serious issues in your past and a serious drinking problem. That's an awful lot for even superman to handle so professional help can only be a good thing. You don't have to do this alone.
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No. Don't cold turkey quitting alcohol. See a doctor. Alcohol withdrawal is serious business. In addition to potentially dangerous I found that I was more likely than not to drink for relief from the symptoms. A doctor can prescribe something for relief from the symptoms and will monitor you.
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Good for you Nathan. Lots of people here have recovered from alcohol, I'm one of them and you can be too. You can join the Class of November 2014 if you like, they'll welcome you with open arms.
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You should definitely look for a good therapist who can help you work through some of the trauma you described from your childhood. You have a lot of difficult stuff in your past, and it's easy to see that as a reason to drink. But there are better ways to handle it. And even if it's hard, which it is, you stand to feel a lot better about yourself for trying to work through your problems as opposed to just blotting them out every night. Stick around, there are always kind, supportive people here to help you.
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Welcome Nathan
You have one hell of a past there, I come from a violent family too, I understand . I drank to block it all out too. You are doing the right thing and looking to make a better future for yourself.
You have some great advice already, just wanted to add my support.
You have one hell of a past there, I come from a violent family too, I understand . I drank to block it all out too. You are doing the right thing and looking to make a better future for yourself.
You have some great advice already, just wanted to add my support.
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