the rollercoaster continues.....
the rollercoaster continues.....
Now I've got over yesterdays anger issues the rollercoaster continues......
on an upward trend today
I watched the rugby for the first time sober and to my massive surprise really enjoyed it - something I always thought before was "how will I ever enjoy watching rugby again if I stop drinking?" Well it can be done.
But more - my daughter started her first ever part time job today and didn't finish till 9pm. Now usually there's no way my kids get lifts after midday on a weekend - and they've just got used to it - relying on buses and friends' parents.
Well I picked her up after work and we chatted all the way home - as it damn well should be - as it damn well should have been for the last 16 years!
So the rollercoaster continues - pride then shame!
If I think about it too much I want to cry with shame - but you can't change the past. I can however decide not to drink anymore and ensure I feel pride instead of self-hatred in the future.
on an upward trend today
I watched the rugby for the first time sober and to my massive surprise really enjoyed it - something I always thought before was "how will I ever enjoy watching rugby again if I stop drinking?" Well it can be done.
But more - my daughter started her first ever part time job today and didn't finish till 9pm. Now usually there's no way my kids get lifts after midday on a weekend - and they've just got used to it - relying on buses and friends' parents.
Well I picked her up after work and we chatted all the way home - as it damn well should be - as it damn well should have been for the last 16 years!
So the rollercoaster continues - pride then shame!
If I think about it too much I want to cry with shame - but you can't change the past. I can however decide not to drink anymore and ensure I feel pride instead of self-hatred in the future.
Thanks for all the encouragement folks.
I do feel like I'm doing well - different and better than any previous attempt.
Sometimes I feel like I'm isolating myself though - not mixing with family and friends, spending tons more time on my own watching films, reading and on the internet. I can't focus on doing anything I usually like. I hope it's temporary as people on here describe - but the important thing is I haven't had a drink for 20 days and if it takes a bit of isolation to ensure a degree of self preservation then tough!
I could really do without this gout that's come back with a vengeance though!
You stop drinking and get a flare up of gout - there is no god!
I do feel like I'm doing well - different and better than any previous attempt.
Sometimes I feel like I'm isolating myself though - not mixing with family and friends, spending tons more time on my own watching films, reading and on the internet. I can't focus on doing anything I usually like. I hope it's temporary as people on here describe - but the important thing is I haven't had a drink for 20 days and if it takes a bit of isolation to ensure a degree of self preservation then tough!
I could really do without this gout that's come back with a vengeance though!
You stop drinking and get a flare up of gout - there is no god!
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