It's a funny old world
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It's a funny old world
I am over four months sober.
Sitting here looking back on the past year. Things work in mysterious ways. Almost exactly one year ago, I was struck down with the sudden onset of chronic Bell's Palsy (a sudden paralysis of the facial muscles). As it happened very quickly, it was very frightening for me, and simple everyday tasks such as brushing teeth and swallowing became major chores. I had to tape my eye shut to get some sleep, as I couldn't close my right eye. I had trouble talking, smiling and eating. I spent much of this time crying, walking the prom and praying to God that (a) the Bell's Palsy would disappear and (b) I would get a job. One year, and a course of physiotherapy and medication later, I am back to myself and starting my job at 9 am on Monday, 1st December. (I was supposed to start on November 17th but it got pushed back. Thanks HR!) Yes, it took a little longer than I had hoped, but I have learnt the value of patience and to never stop hoping or dreaming. Who knows how far I can go? I'm going to shoot for the moon...even if I miss, I will still land among the stars!
This morning I went for my "treat" of a coffee and crepe...it was a cool day, but not raining so I decided to sit outside. A man came along to clean the windows and the back of my chair happened to be right up against the glass, so he said to me "that looks good"...and I asked him "am I in your way? Would you like me to move"? He paused and said "No, you're alright. Thanks for offering though. Most people don't bother".
I think that's kind of sad. When I was sick last year I went to my dad for advice and asked him about the meaning of life. He was quiet for a while and then said "I really don't know. Why don't you just do what I do? Work hard and be kind to others". Isn't that why we are here?
I happen to really like this quote: "Our prime purpose in life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them" - Dalai Lama.
We can accomplish great things when we put down the bottle.
Sitting here looking back on the past year. Things work in mysterious ways. Almost exactly one year ago, I was struck down with the sudden onset of chronic Bell's Palsy (a sudden paralysis of the facial muscles). As it happened very quickly, it was very frightening for me, and simple everyday tasks such as brushing teeth and swallowing became major chores. I had to tape my eye shut to get some sleep, as I couldn't close my right eye. I had trouble talking, smiling and eating. I spent much of this time crying, walking the prom and praying to God that (a) the Bell's Palsy would disappear and (b) I would get a job. One year, and a course of physiotherapy and medication later, I am back to myself and starting my job at 9 am on Monday, 1st December. (I was supposed to start on November 17th but it got pushed back. Thanks HR!) Yes, it took a little longer than I had hoped, but I have learnt the value of patience and to never stop hoping or dreaming. Who knows how far I can go? I'm going to shoot for the moon...even if I miss, I will still land among the stars!
This morning I went for my "treat" of a coffee and crepe...it was a cool day, but not raining so I decided to sit outside. A man came along to clean the windows and the back of my chair happened to be right up against the glass, so he said to me "that looks good"...and I asked him "am I in your way? Would you like me to move"? He paused and said "No, you're alright. Thanks for offering though. Most people don't bother".
I think that's kind of sad. When I was sick last year I went to my dad for advice and asked him about the meaning of life. He was quiet for a while and then said "I really don't know. Why don't you just do what I do? Work hard and be kind to others". Isn't that why we are here?
I happen to really like this quote: "Our prime purpose in life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them" - Dalai Lama.
We can accomplish great things when we put down the bottle.
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I always had this idea that there was something "wrong" with me.
There is nothing wrong with me.
I am just like everyone else.
All the pressure was just in my own head.
Dee said something a while back that "whether life is good or bad, the sun still sets at night. We still go to bed at night and we get up in the morning". When I let go of the anxiety and huge pressure in my head it was really different.
There is nothing wrong with me.
I am just like everyone else.
All the pressure was just in my own head.
Dee said something a while back that "whether life is good or bad, the sun still sets at night. We still go to bed at night and we get up in the morning". When I let go of the anxiety and huge pressure in my head it was really different.
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