matilda123

Shopping in the toy section of target and just rounded the corner and was hit with the baby stuff and with an unexpected and powerful wave of grief. My partner and I tried for 5 years to have a bAby and, 5 miscarriages later, quit trying. That was a few years ago, but the grief still hits me. And the guilt. While I didn't drink while pregNant I can't help but wonder if my years of drinking caused me to be unable to hold a pregnancy. Just feeling very sad😪

Gilmer

I'm so sorry, Matilda.

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Notimetoloose

(((Matilda)))....it probably had nothing at all to do with....please don't do that to yourself.

Anna

Ah, Matilda, I think it's so easy for women to blame themselves for everything. I'm sorry that you are feeling down and I am definitely sending you lots of hugs.

(((Matilda)))

Conquest

(((((Matilda)))))

matilda123

Thank you for the virtual hugs. I'm actually in my car right now, shaking. I wanted to pick up a bottle of Sauvignon blanc so bad that I didn't trust myself and just left my cart in the middle of the store. In neArly eight weeks of sobriety, this is the most tempted I've been to drink. Actually, I'm not sure I would have but i could feel the old, familiar pattern: hard feeling comes up, I immediately wAnt to drink it away. My partner is gone tonight too which, in the past, would be a perfect storm. I plan to stay close to SR tonight.

phoebe64

So sorry you are feeling down.

Soberwolf

HeartsAfire

You're absolutely doing the right thing by posting here and for getting yourself out of a dangerous situation. I hope you see what successes you've had this evening. I know it doesn't feel like it, but you've demonstrated incredible strength.

I'm so very sorry for your losses.

Many, many, many hugs to you, Matilda.

Lusher

Lusher

Inchworm

((((((Matilda)))))) Lots of women who have never dhad a drink have had miscarriages. It is very insightful of you to see the trigger, hear the AV, and ask for love!

Dee74

(((Matilda))) I'm sorry for your pain but there's some great advice here


Noone knows how our lives will turn out....but I really believe if we stay sober we'll be ready for all and any opportunities

prayers of healing and peace to you Matilda

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luvmygirls

Oh Matilda, I am so sorry. I can't even imagine how painful that must be. The good news is, you didn't drink. Congratulations on 8 weeks, that is truly amazing.

Dainty1982

This is not a hug. But holy moly does it make me smile, hope it makes you smile as well. But also sending you a virtual hug from NZ x

growpath

sending virtual hugs your way (((((o)))))

Hevyn

One from me too Matilda. You're among friends who care.

gypsytears

Sendings hugs your way. Grief comes unexpectedly sometimes. You're doing a good thing waking away from the cart and checking in here. Lots of people sending you good vibes.

Impurrfect

(((Matilda)))) - I'm sorry for your pain, but am so very proud of you for posting here and not drinking.

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

Verte

(((((Matilda))))) Stay here. Stay close. This is an excellent plan. Hop on Weasel's Weekender thread if you have the inclination. There is a lot of sober friendship and sharing all weekend long.

You are doing a great job. It is only natural that the 'surface is scratched' once we stop numbing painful experiences with alcohol. There is so much that is beautiful along with the painful. Remember this.

Stay logged into SR until your eyes are snapping shut and you are ready to sleep. I did this for a very long time and it helped with the moments I was scared or uncertain. Everyone here has been there. You are among friends. And I am sorry for the pain you are experiencing. Bravo for feeling.