FreeOwl

Well....

I met with my 'interim sponsor' this morning and received not one but TWO very comprehensive 4th step workbooks.

I can feel the weight of those pages settling in.... and I am ready for the process. I'm going to follow it and let it run its natural course. I feel like ever since the step one workbook, I have already been breaking ground on the 4th.

It's been a process of almost 11 months of sobriety - and indeed of a previous 5 month sobriety and a 1.5 year relapse to get here.

It feels simultaneously exciting, promising, daunting and scary.

But I'm glad to be here and ready to start.

Pen-to-paper. Head-to-heart. Heart-to-soul. Soul-to-spirit.

Here goes nothin. And everything.

Thepatman

Thanks for sharing your recovery journey with us FreeOwl

FreeOwl

part of why I find myself in the blessed place I am is because of others - both here and in the rooms - taking time to share their journey with me.

we pay it back, we pay it forward, we keep ourselves on path.....

chickippo

steps 4 - 7 changed my life. it's hard work but the rewards are huge.

go to it!

luvmygirls

Good luck, Free Owl!

JanieJ

Thank you for sharing that, Free Owl. Please let us know some of your thoughts on the way, it would be really helpful.

Anna

I think that writing my thoughts (journaling) has been very helpful for me. Seeing the words written on paper somehow clarifies things for me. I hope this goes well for you.

Soberwolf

Well done FO your doing really well at 11 months

Like Anna i kept a journal from early on a very useful tool

IOAA2

Hi.
Doing my 4th was the most satisfying thing I did in many years because much wondering was answered.

BE WELL

Hawks

Keep in close contact with your sponsor and a few fellowship members.

My advice is "strike like a Samurai "..... One swift and clean cut.

Don't wallow in this Step... Like ripping off a band aid.... Get it over with.

All the best with it.

FreeOwl

thanks everyone.

I will keep you updated on the process.... this sharing is an essential part of my process too, I have found.

I have been journaling and talking in therapy and reflecting and remembering and dreaming.

I think it has all been leading me to this point where it's time to really dig in, pull it all together, and prepare to swipe it all clean with my samurai sword....

I love that image.

Thank you.