AugustWest11

Still sober; an honestly don't care. Seems the grand scheme is to slowly make me suffer. My father had a stroke last night :'( it saddens me greatly cause he can no longer communicate.

Seems I'm destined to die in this he11hole I wanted to get out of for all those years. Ehhh guess I'll deal.

Dennis

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Ruby2

I'm sorry to hear that your dad had a stroke. That's very sad. Even if he can't communicate I'm sure he probably senses that you are there and care. If you are anything like me, I wouldn't be there if I were still drinking. Hang in there. Sometimes life throws a wrench in the works but you can get through it.

439trish

so very sorry to hear about your Dad......

Coldfusion

I am saddened to hear about your Dad. I hope this strengthens your resolve to stay sober.

Dee74

I'm really sorry about your dad, Dennis.

The thing is, no matter how bad life seems, there's nothing drinking can't make worse man.
Thats a guarantee.

D

Avra

Sorry to hear about your dad. I would bet that now more than ever you need to be strong so you can be there for him.

ZeldaFan

Very sorry to hear about your dad. Try to remain strong even if it seems almost impossible. You know deep inside drinking will only make it harder.

Soberwolf

Hi AW really sorry about your father please dont drink that will only make the bad news worse

if you wanna chat pm friend

Chillly

yep, life sucks.. but it sucks less when you're sober I think
Just a thought; I bet if your dad could still communicate, he'd tell you not to drink on account of him.

MythOfSisyphus

Sorry about your dad, Dennis. I hope he recovers from it. Don't let it ruin you though- I can't imagine he would want that. You've had to deal with a lot of s**t, that is true. But you know what they say- if you're going through hell...keep going!

Hang in there, August.

AugustWest11

Sadly; it would make it worse but at the same time I could sleep ... In the past week I've gotten 8\9 hours sleep. I go to bed crying from the pain only to wake in tears unable to move. Not to mention somehow need to go grocery shopping. My anxiety alone has left me paralyzed lately. I honestly am to the point I just don't give a damn if I do or don't drink now. I've given up on ever being happy sober or drunk; I'll never be happy.

Dennis

But I'll get back on my feet again someday,
The good Lord willin', if He says I may.
I know that the life i'm livin's no good,
I'll get a new start, live the life I should.
I'll get up and fly away, I'll get up and fly away, fly away.

ImperfectlyMe

I'm so sorry about you dad!

As an onlooker, and I hope you know I'm coming from a good place, your living your life as an observer. Sitting watching life happen around you. Often the solution seems far more daunting than our problems. But, if you don't jump you'll never fly.

Even with all the pain you carry, if you really look around you'll see how beautiful life is, when you step outside your head.

Marcher13

I'm sorry about your Dad Dennis, I hope that it comforts you and him that you are together. Stroke victims understand a great deal even when they can't communicate and even though your Dad can't presently communicate doesn't mean he won't again.

soberclover

It made me smile to see a post from you and I'm so glad that you are sober! So very sorry about your Dad.

AugustWest11

I've yet to see him. My mother & brothers think it be best to wait till I get my situation straightened out so I don't upset him more. He is more alert today though. I've just been told Thanx all ..

But I'll get back on my feet again someday,
The good Lord willin', if He says I may.
I know that the life i'm livin's no good,
I'll get a new start, live the life I should.
I'll get up and fly away, I'll get up and fly away, fly away.

Gilmer

(((Dennis)))

Treerat66

Hi Dennis, sorry to hear about your Dad. I hope he makes a good recovery.

Jupiters

so sorry to hear about your Dad.
I hope you can pull yourself together soon and go see him.

bigsombrero

So sorry to hear the news Dennis. Keep doing what you can for yourself, and for your father, whatever that may be. All the best.

gracetuesday

Dennis, so sorry to hear about your Dad..... hang in there as best you can, & let us know how things progress... praying for you all.