Yep i cant do it
We are here to support you not judge you or be frustrated with you! You are doing enough of that to yourself right now. Good for you for getting back on here and reaching out. It's never too late to change Waterfalls. You are still here for a reason!
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Thank you!! I do try. But I'm having a hard time. AD drama and stuff that's not an excuse but it happened. I just wonder if this new life is for me. Crazy I know. 30 years of drinking. Massive feel like crap hangovers. My equilibrium will be off tomorrow. I'll be puking. Why would I wonder. That should be cut and dry. But here I am. Again...
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I keep slipping and slipping. Does my SR family get sick of hearing about it? Am I sharing to much? I feel so bad, committing not to drink some days on the 24 hour thread (which I do take serious and not drink) but some days I disappear. I'm just so mad at myself. I know better.
it looks like 'know better' is not all it takes, Waterfalls. many of us knew better for years or decades. i did certainly know better, but then there would be that idea that maybe this time....or, worse, i wouldn't always care enough that i knew better, because i wasn't listening to THAT part of me, cause if i listened to THAT, i'd need to quit!!
other than feeling bad, mad and sad and posting, what are you doing to make this happen? seems like many of us need to make quite a few changes in order to move forward....what can you add to what hasn't worked for you so far?
other than feeling bad, mad and sad and posting, what are you doing to make this happen? seems like many of us need to make quite a few changes in order to move forward....what can you add to what hasn't worked for you so far?
I can guarantee this new life IS for you...how could a life where you're happy and value yourself more not be?
you just need to find new, better, more effective coping strategies waterfalls, cos drinking just won;t cut it - y'know?
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you just need to find new, better, more effective coping strategies waterfalls, cos drinking just won;t cut it - y'know?
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it looks like 'know better' is not all it takes, Waterfalls. many of us knew better for years or decades. i did certainly know better, but then there would be that idea that maybe this time....or, worse, i wouldn't always care enough that i knew better, because i wasn't listening to THAT part of me, cause if i listened to THAT, i'd need to quit!! other than feeling bad, mad and sad and posting, what are you doing to make this happen? seems like many of us need to make quite a few changes in order to move forward....what can you add to what hasn't worked for you so far?
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Thank you. I do want to value myself. What a wake up call. Thanks for reminding me of this.
yes; planning ahead for times i knew might be difficult, or that might be 'free-floating and vague' was helpful. it takes time to learn how to be with yourself in a new, sober way.
When I read that you're working 50 hours a week by choice to take up your time, it made me stop and think. For me, I have balance is crucial. I would not have been able to recover if I worked 50 hours a week because I have other things in my life that I enjoy and want/need to do. Do you spend time doing things outside of work - hobbies, sports, that kind of thing?
We don't give up on people here at SR.
We don't give up on people here at SR.
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