I made it two months!
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I made it two months!
Today is 62 days for me. I tried to get sober last year on SR but only made it six weeks consecutively. Then after my mom died last February, I went on a binge to end all binges. Blacked out or passed out almost every night and probably doubled my (already high) intake from the year before.
Maybe as a result, I experienced terrible withdrawal this time. The first thirty days were pretty awful--I actually felt hungover (!) Raging headaches almost every day, exhausted, emotional, full of anxiety.
Then things started to get better. And better. Lately I'm feeling a sense of calm I never knew I could have without alcohol. (And I know it's not a "pink cloud" due to the above). I feel happy and energetic. My relationship is getting better--I'm being more open and honest about my feelings. My creativity is waking up, and I can't even remember when the last time was that that happened! I'm finding a lot that is fulfilling about my job even though I don't get paid much.
Most importantly, I still feel amazed and grateful every single day I wake up without a hangover, able to face the day. I'm also aware of being grateful every evening when I can actually talk to my husband and stay conscious long enough to eat, laugh and talk. I'm enjoying the little things, really relishing the times when I'm not working and can relax. And I actually relax instead of knocking myself out with booze.
Life is so much better. Looking back, I can't believe I preferred to be constantly in pain, bleary-eyed, muddy-headed, and dreading waking up every day.
Thanks to Dee and my wonderful home group. Your support has gotten me through--especially when I was hanging by a thread early on!
If anyone with more sobriety reads this, does this feeling go away? I'm worried I'll forget how bad it was and how genuinely happy I feel at the moment. I know life has its ups and downs, but I mean the sense of calm inside. Have you kept experiencing it?
Maybe as a result, I experienced terrible withdrawal this time. The first thirty days were pretty awful--I actually felt hungover (!) Raging headaches almost every day, exhausted, emotional, full of anxiety.
Then things started to get better. And better. Lately I'm feeling a sense of calm I never knew I could have without alcohol. (And I know it's not a "pink cloud" due to the above). I feel happy and energetic. My relationship is getting better--I'm being more open and honest about my feelings. My creativity is waking up, and I can't even remember when the last time was that that happened! I'm finding a lot that is fulfilling about my job even though I don't get paid much.
Most importantly, I still feel amazed and grateful every single day I wake up without a hangover, able to face the day. I'm also aware of being grateful every evening when I can actually talk to my husband and stay conscious long enough to eat, laugh and talk. I'm enjoying the little things, really relishing the times when I'm not working and can relax. And I actually relax instead of knocking myself out with booze.
Life is so much better. Looking back, I can't believe I preferred to be constantly in pain, bleary-eyed, muddy-headed, and dreading waking up every day.
Thanks to Dee and my wonderful home group. Your support has gotten me through--especially when I was hanging by a thread early on!
If anyone with more sobriety reads this, does this feeling go away? I'm worried I'll forget how bad it was and how genuinely happy I feel at the moment. I know life has its ups and downs, but I mean the sense of calm inside. Have you kept experiencing it?
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congrats on your 62 days! If i read correctly you are referring to the overall positive sense of well being when sober? I am almost a year sober and for me i have it everyday. I love thinking about it - puts a hop in my step - sometimes i can be heard singing a little i am sober songs to myself, when no one is around of course. This little tune changes every time but its core theme is always the same.
I never realized how easy work was when you are not hung over. Work is not the stresser it use to be when i was drinking. Keep at it, it only gets better, in all respects.
I never realized how easy work was when you are not hung over. Work is not the stresser it use to be when i was drinking. Keep at it, it only gets better, in all respects.
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Originally Posted by downtown3 
congrats on your 62 days! If i read correctly you are referring to the overall positive sense of well being when sober? I am almost a year sober and for me i have it everyday. I love thinking about it - puts a hop in my step - sometimes i can be heard singing a little i am sober songs to myself, when no one is around of course. This little tune changes every time but its core theme is always the same.
I never realized how easy work was when you are not hung over. Work is not the stresser it use to be when i was drinking. Keep at it, it only gets better, in all respects.
I never realized how easy work was when you are not hung over. Work is not the stresser it use to be when i was drinking. Keep at it, it only gets better, in all respects.
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