countrygirl2014

I am going to have to stop into the friends and family of alcoholics section of this. It is getting harder and harder to deal with my drunk sig other. I can't change others only me. I can't change others only me. I'm about to beat the crap out of the serenity prayer.

Gilmer

I'm sorry, Countrygirl.

bunnezjp

I'll keep you in my prayers. Meanwhile, you got something you can hit? Like a bag of flour?

Bunnez

FreeOwl

Join a Muay Thai gym. Very therapeutic

Dee74

Have you thought about something like AlAnon for yourself CG?

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sugarbear1

no flour, hit a pillow

bunnezjp

Good point, flour is messy.

Bunnez

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AlAnon is a good idea. I hope you find some support for yourself.

bigsombrero

Sorry to hear it CG. I know you're working on your own sobriety right now. Must be tough.

Ruby2

Hi CG, I haunted family and friends when I first joined SR. It helped me a lot and I'm grateful to all the people that mainly post there. My husband is an alcoholic. I turned to newcomers when I got serious about my own problem. You can only change you and support helps! Hang in there. The Serenity Prayer is still my best friend.

Buggirl

Hope you are ok Hun?

JanieJ

Keep on keeping on, CG. ((())) Hugs to you.

afloatsober

My partner goes to Al anon twice a week. Helps her so much. And me as a bonus!
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countrygirl2014

Hey guys. Thank you for your support. I have a meeting today and hopefully can talk to someone. I noticed while I was drinking, he would be pretty bad at least 2 nights a week. Part of the reason I wanted change for myself was because of my daughter. She needs someone stable. What if she needs a trip to the hospital and we are both loaded? But last night...I was scared. He is getting really bad and fast. And it's not just because I'm sober and paying more attention. He had an imaginary fight with me last night, then fell down. He told me I was ignoring him, then he fell. I suggested he shower, he was insulted but did it anyway. Then he thought I wanted him, he bruised my right breast trying to grope, drooling on himself. I smacked him which he did not feel he deserved. This morning he is hanging on to this notion we had some awful fight. I just can't do this. Working in a bar is bad enough. I can't deal with his nonsense while in early recovery. In his eyes, I am the enemy. I went against him and his fathers way. Great spirit, grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I CANNOT CHANGE!!!!

Fly N Buy

Please do! Yell, shout - ask Him WHY?!?!
In my experience He can handle it!!

ArtFriend

CG - Do you really want your daughter to continue to see that hot mess? Her needs must come first and that means a home where she can feel safe and secure. I watched my father come home drunk and start fights with my mother and it had a serious impact on me and my sibs. Please don't subject her to that!!!

sprout50

I hope your meeting goes well. I really feel for you in this situation.

countrygirl2014

Let me put this out there...I have little money, we have no family here, in my current knowledge we have no place to go

sprout50

Who are you meeting with today? Do you think they can help you find a place and some resources? I know you are stuck between a rock and hard place. Kudos to you for staying sober in this situation.

ArtFriend

I don't know where you live, but there must be social services available for women in your circumstance. You really don't have to live like this CG. You and your daughter deserve better!!