countrygirl2014

My AV has me by the throat. It won't shut up. I'm an emotional wreck and stuck at work

Anna

Can you take a break and have a coffee or go for a quick walk?

Stevie1

Please don't!
You've been doing so well. Your sane voice is the one posting for help.
Honestly, you will feel awful in the morning if you give in to your AV. Scream and swear at it. Deny it what it's trying to trick you out of.

tommyinphilly

Do anything else. We can talk on this thread all night if you need to

Barnumb

I thought we were both on 24 days? Would be a shame to throw away the hardest days of recovery. I for one do not want to go through those again. Do anything to break the monotony. Lean back in your chair and throw pencils into the ceiling tiles. cover your desk in post-it notes, just do something to ride out the urge.

tommyinphilly

Are you a football fan CG?

Muffin2

Hi CG2014, hang in there. Keep talkinh here on SR, it usually goes away in 10 minutea

silentrun

Tomorrow morning isn't that far away. Think this through. That voice is promising something it can't deliver.

HeartsAfire

You're not going to drink. Tell your AV that in no uncertain terms. You're fighting for your life here, Girl. Shut that SOB down. Tonight's the night YOU win.

Awesome job for posting!! I'm betting your AV didn't expect that, huh? You've already dealt it a significant blow. Keep punching, keep fighting. It'll go away eventually. I promise.

Stick close. We'll be here for you all night. We've got you.

Barnumb

Muffin is right..

Magellan

Don't do it CG, you will feel worse, try to stay strong, I know it is tough but the drink will not be worth it! I had a very tough day at work today and came home to find a bunch of family stopped by for dinner, all we're having wine, my AV was at me to just join in, but I didn't want to throw away 13 days, it would have tasted good for about 3 seconds followed by hours of regret. Good luck!

Barnumb

CG it is clear you have a big following here supporting you. We are all pulling for you to be strong! You can kick the voice. be firm.

MsJax

You can get through. The craving will ease. Can you get something to eat? Play the tape through in your head, of what will happen if you betray yourself and pick up again...

Muffin2

CG, are you still there? Talk to us pls

tommyinphilly

Stay strong country girl

Mark1014

Hi CG, like Barnumb and the others said....we support you. You can do this and I look forward to your post adding another day tomorrow!

growpath

Hi CG take it from a past relapser.... you have no idea when it will stop! If I pick back up I know some sort of my chunk of life would be gone.....could be forever. Same for you!

It's not worth it.

Take a walk, stay here on SR, punch something, read anything. Just promise yourself you wont drink today and see how you feel tomorrow.

You can do this and you have come so far!

Once when I was like this a friend who knew my wishes said simply "you aint missing nothing, believe me" That's so simple and SO true!

SOBRIETY HAS SO MANY GIFTS TO OFFER. PICKING UP GUARANTEES MISERY...theres NO WAY around it!!!!

Hang in there and please let us know how you are!

neferkamichael

Countrygirl2014, just tuff it out, suffer through it, the next time will be so much easier, rootin for ya.

growpath

14 members are on this thread as we speak. We are all here for you CG!!!

biminiblue

What is happening? What is going on that is making you feel this way?

Whatever it is, it will not be made better by drinking.

Can you do 50 jumping jacks? Squats? Anything physical will reduce your anxiety.