The drink is an enemy that can not be defeated, but must be avoided.
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The drink is an enemy that can not be defeated, but must be avoided.
Hello brothers and sisters on the path of recovery!
I just signed up this morning after deciding last night enough is enough and was getting sick and tired of the stumbles. Ive been on this path of recovery for almost a year and my life has been getting better and better , but with some bumps that knock me down again and I falter. It took last night for me to realize I have had the wrong attitude regarding recovery.
I looked at my disease as an enemy that I must defeat and was using recovery and the tools I have learned along the way with the intention of defeating alcohol abuse. Last night, I found myself looking to battle against this demon when I realized in disgust what I was doing: I was trying to defeat an enemy that will always win no matter what. I anger I threw my tall boy in the garbage and looked for a local AA meeting with my "aha" moment.
The drink turns me into a person I despise when I have too much. Not even a sip should ever be justified. The thought of just a quick jab and I will run out of the ring never works. When I enter the ring, I have already lost. Last night, I accepted the fact that the drink has my number and will always destroy me. I waved the white flag and vowed never to enter into that ring again.
Thus, today starts off my new, corrected view and path of recovery. The focus and goal needs to be day by day, communication is a must if trouble arises and I need to reincorporate other methods that I have learned for stress relief. These things need to be daily hobbies and rituals of mine, much like eating three meals a day or taking the dog out for a walk. With this attitude and support, wisdom and experience from everyone here, I look forward to progress and reclaiming my life for the better while seeking happiness and fulfilling my purpose here on this earth.
Thanks for reading and I look forward to learning and sharing from everyone here!
I just signed up this morning after deciding last night enough is enough and was getting sick and tired of the stumbles. Ive been on this path of recovery for almost a year and my life has been getting better and better , but with some bumps that knock me down again and I falter. It took last night for me to realize I have had the wrong attitude regarding recovery.
I looked at my disease as an enemy that I must defeat and was using recovery and the tools I have learned along the way with the intention of defeating alcohol abuse. Last night, I found myself looking to battle against this demon when I realized in disgust what I was doing: I was trying to defeat an enemy that will always win no matter what. I anger I threw my tall boy in the garbage and looked for a local AA meeting with my "aha" moment.
The drink turns me into a person I despise when I have too much. Not even a sip should ever be justified. The thought of just a quick jab and I will run out of the ring never works. When I enter the ring, I have already lost. Last night, I accepted the fact that the drink has my number and will always destroy me. I waved the white flag and vowed never to enter into that ring again.
Thus, today starts off my new, corrected view and path of recovery. The focus and goal needs to be day by day, communication is a must if trouble arises and I need to reincorporate other methods that I have learned for stress relief. These things need to be daily hobbies and rituals of mine, much like eating three meals a day or taking the dog out for a walk. With this attitude and support, wisdom and experience from everyone here, I look forward to progress and reclaiming my life for the better while seeking happiness and fulfilling my purpose here on this earth.
Thanks for reading and I look forward to learning and sharing from everyone here!
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when you threw that tall boy in the garbage, you won.
every day you go to bed sober, you won.
My personal perspective is that the enemy can absolutely be defeated.
But we must be prepared to fight it every day.
In any case, whatever frame of reference works for you, go with that. Focus on sobriety more than you focus on alcohol and the rest will follow.
every day you go to bed sober, you won.
My personal perspective is that the enemy can absolutely be defeated.
But we must be prepared to fight it every day.
In any case, whatever frame of reference works for you, go with that. Focus on sobriety more than you focus on alcohol and the rest will follow.
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MrJames, you sound like me today. I today have also held up my white flag of surrender. I have admitted here that I can no longer drink and the option is off the table.
I have finally turned my life and will over to God and will follow His guidance from this day forward.
Glad you are here!
I have finally turned my life and will over to God and will follow His guidance from this day forward.
Glad you are here!
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Very well said and well done for resolving as you have.
Must admit i am in the 'surrender to win' camp.
I battled for years and won a few skirmishes but only short term and hollow victories. Only when i resolved that the war was well and truly over did the fight go out of my 'enemy'.
Have a good evening.
G
Must admit i am in the 'surrender to win' camp.
I battled for years and won a few skirmishes but only short term and hollow victories. Only when i resolved that the war was well and truly over did the fight go out of my 'enemy'.
Have a good evening.
G
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Well said afloatsober!
The victories have be hallow and short lived for me. Wisdom comes with experience and I am all ears when it comes to this process of recovery. I appreciate and look forward to any wisdom and/or advice from you and the other brothers and sisters!
The victories have be hallow and short lived for me. Wisdom comes with experience and I am all ears when it comes to this process of recovery. I appreciate and look forward to any wisdom and/or advice from you and the other brothers and sisters!
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Surrender to win.
I think I'm in this camp too now. Took awhile to get here...
Reminds me of an episode of Hercules (1995) where Hercules is fighting Ares god of war.
The key to win is for Hercules to not fight/resist Ares. Once Hercules realizes this Ares loses most of his power and retreats.
Think alcohol is like that for me. And yes Hercules was one of my favorite tv shows in the 90s.
I think I'm in this camp too now. Took awhile to get here...
Reminds me of an episode of Hercules (1995) where Hercules is fighting Ares god of war.
The key to win is for Hercules to not fight/resist Ares. Once Hercules realizes this Ares loses most of his power and retreats.
Think alcohol is like that for me. And yes Hercules was one of my favorite tv shows in the 90s.
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