erin8

So.. this is day 11. I relapsed on my last day 13 (so I only made it 12 days sober.) This weekend was hectic. I went to my cousin's funeral on Saturday then at my aunts house I wrecked my car in a ditch and busted my radiator. Luckily my dad and my cousins were there and able to fix it in 2 hours for free. Then yesterday I took my son to a festival and had a lot of fun but it was kind of stressful too because he's three and he doesn't like to listen to me. I'm planning a baby shower for a friend next month too. The obsession hasnt gone away. I still think about it everyday but I really really dont ever want to feel that shame or depression again so I go to my meetings. Call my sponser. Read. And post. I'm feeling down today though so it's not easy. Just hoping to make it another day. Take care guys. Thanks for reading.

ScottFromWI

Sounds like you are doing all the right things Erin, we are always here if you need us. Keeping your sponsors number handy and going to meetings is a great plan as well.

Sometimes we have bad days, sorry you are having one today.

AlexEmk

And you will....

then another...

then you'll realise that it's not as hard as it was today...

then another day...

I believe that you can do it! Everyone can!

Soberwolf

Yes bad days hasppen 11 days is fantadtic keep it up

sprout50

We all have those down days Erin. It will pass. Just keep doing what you're doing.

JanieJ

Hi Erin, well done on 11 days, amazing ! I'm on day nine this time around. Think it's been the longest 9 days of my life ! Huge well done to you after your hectic weekend

PurpleKnight

11 Days is fantastic Erin!! You can do this, keep it going!!

jryan19982

Awesome job! Keep going!

erin8

I ended up drinking that day. I'm on day 6 this time around. I'm going to try harder because nothing changes if nothing changes right?

PurpleKnight

What's the new plan Erin?

For me trying harder needed to incorporate some new activities, more support, something different to change the results!!

You can do this!!

MavisTheFairy13

Right there with you on day 6 Erin x

erin8

I've been reading more from the big book and working on morning meditation and prayer