Just wanted to say hello..
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Join Date: Oct 2014
Location: Gold Coast, Australia
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Just wanted to say hello..
Joined just now, interesting reading other peoples tales with my problems, thought i was the only one. Yes i am an alcoholic, have been since i was sixteen. I was a miserable mixed up kid who hated life and himself until his first drink at 16. I still hated life and myself after i found drink, but the pain dissolved while i was and still am intoxicated. I will never stop, why because i do not want to and i could not function without the thought of looking forward to a drink, its the only thing i live for. I hope it kills me, because the pain will then be gone forever. My story is a long one which i will script at a later date, today is not the day due to being hungover and feeling totally alone with myself. I just wanted to thank all members who post on here, it really puts my situation into perspective. I am not looking for sympathy nor do i feel sorry for myself. I guess i just want to have somewhere i can go when i want to talk, and somewhere to go where i can read about others with similar issues.
Thanks Blackcab
Thanks Blackcab
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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welcome blackcab 
I think addiction colours our perspective a lot, more than we realise.
I hated myself with a passion. I was depressed and isolated.
I thought booze was the only thing I had to live for too.
Turns out I was totally wrong. I was totally believing the lies that kept me addicted and in chains.
I used to drink all day every day. The last 7 years have been a revelation to me.
I love who I am and I love my life.
Don't take my word for it though - you'll hear from a lot of others too.
There really is hope...for all of us
D
I think addiction colours our perspective a lot, more than we realise.
I hated myself with a passion. I was depressed and isolated.
I thought booze was the only thing I had to live for too.
Turns out I was totally wrong. I was totally believing the lies that kept me addicted and in chains.
I used to drink all day every day. The last 7 years have been a revelation to me.
I love who I am and I love my life.
Don't take my word for it though - you'll hear from a lot of others too.
There really is hope...for all of us
D
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Join Date: Oct 2014
Location: England
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Welcome, Blackcab, I think Dee's words are worth thinking about. I can relate deeply to the feelings you are having. Now things are different for me, better. Hope you find comfort and support here.
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Join Date: Sep 2014
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Welcome, Blackcab! I think you'll find a lot of support and understanding here. As Dee said, we've been in that place of despair and self-loathing (and some of us--me included--are still fighting our way out of it). Thanks for posting and please stick around.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Dorset, England
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A big fat Pommie welcome, Blackcab! 
I, too, can relate to how you feel, but one of the most surprising (and wonderful) things for me about being sober has been the discovery of self-esteem. I do actually like myself, warts and all, and am immensely proud of all I've achieved
I don't know how old you are, but I was 52 when I finally gave up drinking and it's been truly transformational. It really is never too late to change your destination
You've made a great and positive decision in joining this site. Some part of you definitely wants to change or you wouldn't have done that. Lean on us, my friend xxx
I, too, can relate to how you feel, but one of the most surprising (and wonderful) things for me about being sober has been the discovery of self-esteem. I do actually like myself, warts and all, and am immensely proud of all I've achieved
I don't know how old you are, but I was 52 when I finally gave up drinking and it's been truly transformational. It really is never too late to change your destination
You've made a great and positive decision in joining this site. Some part of you definitely wants to change or you wouldn't have done that. Lean on us, my friend xxx
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