the tears will have to stop eventually
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the tears will have to stop eventually
I tell myself this everyday. I'm leaving .... Moving across the country but I'm still haunted by this beast that has destroyed my ex boyfriend's life.
I cry for a little everyday and we've been broken up since June but of course we were last in contact on Tuesday of last week. I just.... I see the physical damage he's left to my home.... I remember how good things were until they got bad and there's nothing I can do. So I just stay away. I suppose I'm a lot happier then wh we would fight with his irrational behavior.... But I miss what he was without the alcohol. I love him so much but it just can't work I can't take the abuse and the pain that comes with it.... I hope he can get better one day but moreover I just hope these tears go away.
I cry for the pain he caused me, I cry for the pain he causes himself. He's still in denial and take a pleasure in seeing me cry.... Who wants to be this way? He hates me because I know he can be better and I hold him accountable for his actions.
We will be 2000+ km apart but I don't know if a part of me will ever stop loving and hoping.
But first things first I need to get what I deserve & that's having my new life and finally escaping the fear he's going to just show up and wishing I won't look back.
I cry for a little everyday and we've been broken up since June but of course we were last in contact on Tuesday of last week. I just.... I see the physical damage he's left to my home.... I remember how good things were until they got bad and there's nothing I can do. So I just stay away. I suppose I'm a lot happier then wh we would fight with his irrational behavior.... But I miss what he was without the alcohol. I love him so much but it just can't work I can't take the abuse and the pain that comes with it.... I hope he can get better one day but moreover I just hope these tears go away.
I cry for the pain he caused me, I cry for the pain he causes himself. He's still in denial and take a pleasure in seeing me cry.... Who wants to be this way? He hates me because I know he can be better and I hold him accountable for his actions.
We will be 2000+ km apart but I don't know if a part of me will ever stop loving and hoping.
But first things first I need to get what I deserve & that's having my new life and finally escaping the fear he's going to just show up and wishing I won't look back.
Lady, I'd like to refer you to a couple of threads I really like on this topic. One is older, from the stickies at the top of the page:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ain-stops.html
Another is very recent:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rd-health.html
Nothing lasts forever, and your sorrow will pass. These threads can provide great inspiration to help you keep going when it all seems too much.
Wishing you strength and clarity.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ain-stops.html
Another is very recent:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rd-health.html
Nothing lasts forever, and your sorrow will pass. These threads can provide great inspiration to help you keep going when it all seems too much.
Wishing you strength and clarity.
Nothing lasts forever, and your sorrow will pass.
It's not pleasant, but it's a GOOD thing you're doing. (((hugs)))
Stella, that is a wonderful promise that you made; but can it be kept. I've been crying everyday for months now. Not to rain on the parade but there is no guarantee
I DO KNOW you were trying to be helpful
Sometimes I look into to words too deeply.
I left my husband about 10 months ago there is no "On or Off" control switch....YET
I DO KNOW you were trying to be helpful
Sometimes I look into to words too deeply.
I left my husband about 10 months ago there is no "On or Off" control switch....YET
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Airwick, may I ask what healthy steps are you taking to help you get to a better place?
And LadyM, often those tears can be cleansing, no doubt about it, break-ups hurt, all we can do is go forward, no need to look back, we no longer live there.
Sending you healing thoughts.
And LadyM, often those tears can be cleansing, no doubt about it, break-ups hurt, all we can do is go forward, no need to look back, we no longer live there.
Sending you healing thoughts.
And you're right - part of you always will love him, and that's ok. As for hope, I try to focus any hope I feel toward my X as well-wishes for him to have a better life, as opposed to him one day miraculously becoming the partner I needed him to be.
Take good care of yourself and stick around with us - the support here is amazing.
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