Briar

I went grocery shopping this afternoon and did pretty well until I got into checkout line behind a lady who was buying a box of the mini wine bottles I used to stash in my purse before I switched to vodka. I broke down in tears and sobbed the whole way through the line. Everyone politely ignored me. I still feel horrible and crazy and tearful. I can't even sort out all the feelings right now.

suki44883

Oh, I'm sorry, sweetie. It will get better. I promise!

Soberwolf

Hi Briar ive got emotional in early sobriety its you coming to realise with how things were

big hugs briar

enfinthechange

Crying coz you wanted them, crying coz you didn't... or just at the whole shebang.... , crying is therapy and now you have done that you can process it and take one more step out of the mire!

Anna

I'm sorry, but you know it's part of the healing process.

Btw, I remember switching from wine to vodka too because it was easier to hide.

biminiblue

Emotions are all over the place in early sobriety.

It will get better. . .and at least you left without the bottles yourself. Progress!

Elodie

Awww, that happens. About two weeks in for me, I was at dinner with my family, everyone had a drink except my mom, I sat there sobbing.

It gets better. I promise.

BlissWithin

A similar thing happened to me as I went to the supermarket and I saw a woman drinking the same cheap liquor I used to buy alone in the parking lot, I felt sorry for her...

Opivotal

You did better than me Briar, at least you checked out! I never made it that far.

Like everyone says, early recovery is an emotional time for all of us. Time will heal all that.

You didn't have a relapse and maybe released some pent up frustration.

Stevie1

((Briar))
Heck I'm only three days in this time around and I've caught myself getting teary reading some posts here. And I'm not at all the teary sort.
Tearful does not equal "horrible and crazy!"
You're doing great.

bookmaven

I got teary eyed at the store too during the first few weeks. Then I was angry at the stores for putting up end cap displays of alcohol so it was all over in my face. Then I would only go shopping after 9pm the time legal alcohol sale stopped in my state (denial). Now I accept it even though it still bothers me, but only once in a while.

I realized I was going through the stages of grief. Which in a way I was, because alcohol was my "friend".

PurpleKnight

Hang in there!!

Buggirl

Hope you are ok! Don't worry, I to got teary the other day!

least

Early sobriety is a roller coaster of emotions. It will get better.

Hevyn

Hi Briar. I agree, we're emotionally fragile in the early days. I was a bit resentful and sorry for myself, even though I knew I was saving my life. It all calms down. You're doing great.

growpath

Hang in there Briar!

Sometimes a good cry does wonders for the soul.

You didn't drink over it and I would call that a huge success

Mikie9

You are no fool Briar, you are successful! I had to stop going to grocery stores that sell beer, the voice was always too loud to just get a 24oz....just one. yeah right.

WritingFromLife

It DOES get better. I remember being sad like that early on --and then one day, I went down the alcohol aisle, looked at the Chardonnay section and said (insert F Bomb here) YOU!
Now, If you knew me, you would think this was WAY out of character.....I cant imagine what the onlookers were thinking. I smiled the rest of the day!

Hugs to you. Stick around...it can be a bit of a grieving process--like divorce. And we all know what happens when what doesn't kill you makes you STRONGER!

Dee74

(((briar)))

D

SoberLife90

Way to go Briar! This is perfectly normal. I remember when I first got sober I was feeling all different kinds of emotions. I remember being sad having my eyes get teary and I'm thinking "what is happening to me"...I'm not a very emotional guy other than being happy. I experienced anger and was often very irritable. This does get better though. Hang in there you can do this...be strong.