MavisTheFairy13

Don't know what happened. Got really down an hour or so ago and sent hubby to get two bottles of wine. One white one red. Opened the white, poured a glass and had a mouthful. Wondered what the hell I was doing and tipped the rest away. I have no idea what the hell is going on in my head I'm all over the place

Coldfusion

Mavis, good going on not drinking the wine, but it sounds like you're in a precarious spot. PLEASE stick close to SR for a bit!

biminiblue

Get rid of that wine.


No good comes from this.

airwick

I'm right there with you today. I was a wine drinker myself.

One good thing about me being divorced, the husband can't go out on a wine run! lol I am so so so so glad you tipped it down the drain.

I'm going to pour myself a glass of sparkling Sprite in my frosted wine glass. The feeling of tranquility is so reassuring

Kevin78

Well done. I could never have done that to be honest.

MavisTheFairy13

Thank you all. I feel so stupid. There I am posting on people's threads telling them they are doing great and then I'm blooming pouring a glass of wine. I'm really glad I poured it out. It didn't even taste nice. Horrible in fact.

I think I've been a bit too complacent

Findingtheway

don't do it Mavis! Get rid of the temptation.

Talk to us about what you're feeling. Tis scary sometimes I know.

Talk to us. Get the feelings out. You're not crazy. You'll get no judgement here I'm quite sure.

Praying for you.

Soberwolf

Mavis did your husband try to talk you out of it ?

Glad you poured it away

Remember why your doing this

big hugs sorry your down

PurpleKnight

Did something happen today Mavis in particular, or just one of those days?

I had to really hammer it home in my mind that alcohol solves very little in life, it's a quick fix to numb away the ups and downs in life, but there are always going to be the downs as well as the ups, and adding a few more tools to the toolbox to deal with them was gonna be needed rather than turning to my old friend alcohol.

Great job on not following through!!

heath480

Sorry you are struggling tonight Mavis,don't give in to the craving,it will pass.

Get rid of the wine,have plenty of non-alcoholic drinks,sometimes a craving is just that you are thirsty.

MavisTheFairy13

Findingtheway I don't know how I'm feeling to be honest. I used wine to stop the bad feelings and I've learned from a young age to squash them down and not let them out. I suppose I just never learned how to deal with negative emotions properly. I'm 44 for gods sake I really need to get my act together!

MavisTheFairy13

Sw he asked me if I was sure but that was about it... but he was pleased when I didn't drink the rest of the glass.
Purpleknight just a bad day really my son has been really difficult and not happy and whinging and having meltdowns and self harming, and today it just all got to me and made me feel useless and I suppose I wanted something to make me feel better. But I know that alcohol doesn't. Old habits maybe?

Mountainmanbob

It's hard to not deceive ourselves at times. No one has deceived me more than me.

As they say "best to play the tape out in full"
What happens when we drink ?
How do I feel later ?

MM

MavisTheFairy13

I'm gonna have a cup of tea

jakec

Don't beat yourself up for taking that sip. So proud of you for dumping the rest out. Stay close to us.

Coldfusion

It really can help to post a thread here when you feel a craving, because the "Newcomer's" section has the most viewers. Have you thought of joining the "Class of October 2014" thread? There, you can journal what is going on in your life with a group of others who are in a similar space in their recovery. And a lot of us check in daily at the "24-Hour Recovery Connections." Here's a couple other interesting threads:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...hat-value.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post4962619

MavisTheFairy13

I'll have a look coldfusion thank you. I've pretty much stuck to the newcomers bit and not really looked around!

Soberwolf

Mavis i think you need to talk with husband as him saying 'are you sure' proves he doesnt realise that it is the problem you know it is

if i said to my gf im going to drink TRUST ME she wouldnt be asking 'are you sure'

Mavis drink your tea recognise that you dont have to drink alcohol slowly you can work it out rome wasnt built in a day

your doing really well dont let this derail you

MavisTheFairy13

Thanks everyone just feel gutted that I've messed up after almost ten days. Moment of madness I think

Carlotta

I am glad you did not drink but the way your husband jumped to enable you is a bit concerning. Is he getting help too?