No shame in my game
No shame in my game
So I'm on vacation - first sober one since age 18 by the way (I'm 44). First thing that happens when we get to the beach house is mother-in-law starts unpacking wine & telling me all that she has & which bottles are for me. I looked at my husband & he nods his head that it's time to tell her.
"I no longer drink."
Blank stare.
"It's the choice I've made for myself and for my family."
Blank stare which turns into a quizzical look. Then she says, "Well I guess our liquor bill will be cut in half now."
I feel the tears start to well up and the crimson start to rise from my neck & onto my face. It's not sadness. It's embarrassment and even worse than that, it's shame. Husband grabs me, hugs me tight and whispers in my ear, "I'm so proud of you." Then he says to his mom, "I'm proud of her and her choice. She's amazing."
Pride. That's what I choose to believe in tonight. Pride beats shame. Every. Single. Time.
Tonight I remained sober. I'm winning this battle.
"I no longer drink."
Blank stare.
"It's the choice I've made for myself and for my family."
Blank stare which turns into a quizzical look. Then she says, "Well I guess our liquor bill will be cut in half now."
I feel the tears start to well up and the crimson start to rise from my neck & onto my face. It's not sadness. It's embarrassment and even worse than that, it's shame. Husband grabs me, hugs me tight and whispers in my ear, "I'm so proud of you." Then he says to his mom, "I'm proud of her and her choice. She's amazing."
Pride. That's what I choose to believe in tonight. Pride beats shame. Every. Single. Time.
Tonight I remained sober. I'm winning this battle.
My first sober vacation was great. So was my second. One of these days, my third shall be, too.
You're going to have a good vacation. You deserve it.
Wow! Just wow! Im proud of you as well! I got teary eyed reading your post. You rock and so does your husband!! He is so supportive, that is awesome! Good for you! Pride does beat shame everytime, you are so correct. Inspirational post HeartsAfire! How long have you been sober?
Next time someone says something like that, don't let it upset you, just say "more money to go shopping with!! Yay me!" than jump up and down and clap your hands! lol
Very nice post. Im glad I clicked on it and read it!
Next time someone says something like that, don't let it upset you, just say "more money to go shopping with!! Yay me!" than jump up and down and clap your hands! lol
Very nice post. Im glad I clicked on it and read it!
Great Job HeartsAfire! You'll have memories WORTH recalling once you get back home!
Sounds like you have a fantastic husband that supports you 100%!
Enjoy your vacation and take the time to relax...
Sounds like you have a fantastic husband that supports you 100%!
Enjoy your vacation and take the time to relax...
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