I AM THIRD IS A WiNNER
I AM THIRD IS A WiNNER
Things have been hard since last weekend when I realized the depths of deterioration my separated AH has sunk to when he called me for a ride at 2am laying on the street sleeping on the worst intersection in our city. Just grieving...going through the normal thoughts...
Anyway... I was taking DD6 to school this morning. She is in 1st grade. We were standing outside her class waiting for class to start and another little boy from her class ran up to her and said "Do you want to smell my armpit? It has cologne in it!" DD6 and I just started laughing so hard until we cried! We have not laughed like that in so long!!! And in this moment...I realized this is what my joy is! I am the winner! I am present for these moments while separated AH is falling further into the abyss of chaos and alcoholism. While he is living with a new enabler, partying on the streets...I am here with our child having these laughs, sharing these experiences! He will miss these things...
To those of you jus starting your journey....keep going. It will get better. I used to be so sad amd angry. Turning that curve now and it has taken years but I would do it all again to be standing here in the same place. I go to bed every night being exactly who I want to be. Not many people can say the same. Life is truly a gift!'
Anyway... I was taking DD6 to school this morning. She is in 1st grade. We were standing outside her class waiting for class to start and another little boy from her class ran up to her and said "Do you want to smell my armpit? It has cologne in it!" DD6 and I just started laughing so hard until we cried! We have not laughed like that in so long!!! And in this moment...I realized this is what my joy is! I am the winner! I am present for these moments while separated AH is falling further into the abyss of chaos and alcoholism. While he is living with a new enabler, partying on the streets...I am here with our child having these laughs, sharing these experiences! He will miss these things...
To those of you jus starting your journey....keep going. It will get better. I used to be so sad amd angry. Turning that curve now and it has taken years but I would do it all again to be standing here in the same place. I go to bed every night being exactly who I want to be. Not many people can say the same. Life is truly a gift!'
That's awesome! I have in-laws who see our kids semi-regularly (every two or three months), and I'm so happy that my older two kids from my first marriage have two active sets of grandparents in their lives, even if these particular people are only grandparents by marriage. The other set is actually just their grandmother on the exhole's side. Aside from having the emotional maturity of 12-year-olds, that side of the family is kind of ok. About a year ago I stopped thinking, "Look what AM is missing" every time we'd do family things together. She made a choice to be absent from her grandchildren's lives. She has a granddaughter she's never met and who knows nothing about her. I'm the winner here. I have beautiful children and grandparents who are lucky enough to be in their lives. You are definitely the winner, too. (((Hugs)))
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Did she smell ?
Did you?
Was it fantastically perfumey, or did it smell like a little boys arm pit????????
I must know!
Congratulations, Iamthird. You are truly living the good life.
Did you?
Was it fantastically perfumey, or did it smell like a little boys arm pit????????
I must know!
Congratulations, Iamthird. You are truly living the good life.
No. DD6 did not stick her face in his armpit but we could smell him without doing so. He sprayed cologne into his armpit, and I think everyone in a 10ft range could smell it! Hahaha!!! It is still funny....
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My 10 yo boy has been sick with a headache, slight fever and nausea since yesterday.
MOM! he proclaims. I am not sick anymore!
How do you figure?
Well, if you smell my armpit, and it smells good, I am all better!
He put on his older brother's deodorant before this dialogue. L O L
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MOM! he proclaims. I am not sick anymore!
How do you figure?
Well, if you smell my armpit, and it smells good, I am all better!
He put on his older brother's deodorant before this dialogue. L O L
Sue
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